#Brandon no thats not fixing anything

[sapphirothcrescent]

This last chapter basically. Spoiler

Sapphire: Sephiroth and I are together!

Her dad: *cocks gun* Not for long.

[chaifootsteps]

(Last one I gotta resend lol)

Imo the stupid anti-Blitzo support-group party could've actually made sense pretty easily if those people's excuse to be there was simply to attend to a Verosika Mayday party.

Since, you know, she's a famous pop star both on Hell and Earth.

If I recall, Blitz used to be her body guard, and she has a tattoo of him on her arm, so it's safe to assume their relationship was public knowledge.

And when he bailed on her she probably wrote like a Taylor Swfit/Ed Sheeran album about it, or told the story in an interview, and her fans hate him on her behalf. Not because they have anything to do with him themselves.

The show could've made it so they broke up at around Halloween or maybe that's when she released the album so it'd make more sense for her regular Halloween party to be 'Blitzo' or heartbreak-themed.

Marketing her music, basically.

And then Verosika could have had a small VIP section reserved for actual exes of Blitz or whatever, and thats where she invited Stolas to (even though he shouldnt be there at all).

Unless I'm forgetting something, I think it was a pretty simple fix for the actual canon to be so cringey and crazy-ex-gf coded. Thoughts?

-💀 anon

I like it! It's believable and the kind of thing I would have expected from season 1, when Brandon was doing more of the writing.

[charmixpower]

Issue Six: The Swamp Monster

I have nothing to say she's adorable

Sky and Bloom get into an argument but the translation I'm reading is so bad I can't follow it

"I am only well–bred! Have you some problem if I speak with other person?" Is Bloom's dialogue and I'm assuming what it's actually supposed to say is "Well I'm sorry if I'm not rich enough to get away with not having a job. Do you have a problem with me talking with other people?"

But I have no clue XD just know Sky is being an asshole

"If the school is too small for you you did right to find this job" - Sky assumedly implying that Bloom is flirting with her customers by being nice to him. Which is a normal thing to think, and isn't incel logic

Tecna being boy crazy IS LIES AND THE COMICS NEED TO STOP SLANDERING HER

This is the cutest shit I've ever seen in my life

Brandon: If, for the sake of argument, I was a bodyguard for prince Sky and not actually prince Sky, would that change anything about our relationship? How mad would you be on a scale from one to ten? How best could I make it up to you?

Also Brandon trying to impress Stella by fixing a boat for her I love it

Unbothred. Moisturized. In his lane. Focused. Flourishing.

Comics Riven is getting ahead on his school assignments with his squad

This is so adorable, siblings b fighting

I like how they're game to manipulate any of the boys, it just happened that Riven was the easiest

I love how Riven is looking at Icy pretending to be injured like "can't you fix that with magic???"

He thinks the Trix is sus

Icy doing a wounded fawn act is so insane to me, but I love it

I can't imagine her liking being condescended by people trying to help her but she loves being the center of attention

Comics Riven is slower to fall into Darcy's trap bc there's no fake accident. Very cool

OH THATS WERE THEIR WEAPONS COME FROM!!! THAT'S COOL AS SHIT!!!!

While the concept of stealing others energy is super cool, it raises the very important question of why they didn't do this to Bloom

There he goes XDD

Darcy has known this man for like one conversation and she's already willing to defend him from her sisters. Instant love worse than Musa's unexplained s1 crush on Riven. One thing they have in common

Why does Darcy seem so sure he's different, you don't know him girl!! And you were just manipulating him!!

Musa: *sees the chick who's tried to kill her with her sisters multiple times*

Riven: Oh wow I'm sure in pain right now with no clue how this happened to me. I wonder what happened

Musa: oh he's picking her :((

GIRL IT IS TIME TO BE WORRIED AND FIGHTING NOT SAD!!

I cannot understand how the implication that Darcy, who she knows is violent, did this to Riven doesn't even seem to cross her mind

Like Musa doesn't know that Darcy wouldn't, it's a good fuckin assumption to make

I'm torn between thinking comics Sky should get away from her and thinking this is the first time they've been adorable

[aesudan-kholin]

most of the people in this fandom on this platform know jack shit about mormonism and will only bring it up when they want to make a potshot about sanderson's beliefs in what are usually wildly inaccurate ways. like come on if we're gonna point out the mormon influences in his work why don't we point out the allusion to anything not written in metal not being able to be trusted to the golden plates, or the similarities of kabsal to a mormon missionary, or the parallels between the belief that those in the celestial kingdom will ascend to godhood and get their own planets to run and the shards, or the exmormon influences of jasnah? but no its that mormons think gay people go to hell and sanderson is a mormon so he must believe that. fam they don't even believe in regular hell. go google search outer darkness. existing being gay is not a sin anymore in the church, even though gay sex is sin still on the level of masturbation. but does anyone care to look at the full picture of it? there is so much to be said and so many stories to tell and so many queer people who have suffered under the mormon church and how high the suicide rates are and the homophobic attitudes and polices that affect the day to day lives of those still in and those who leave the church. no one assuming they know what mormons believe so they can make a post on tumblr dot com for clout actually cares about those people though, do they? it's posturing, putting someone down to make themselves look better in comparison. thats not love. thats not helping.

did you guys know that the mormon church recently used BYU to launder hundreds of millions of dollars from canada to the U.S. ? So you guys know about the massive boy scouts of america abuse lawsuits going on right now? Do you know the name of Sam Young? do you know what the CES letter is and its impact? do you know the list of things that can get you excommunicated from the church, of which a sex change surgery and murder and talking trash about the church on the internet are side by side? do you know of the temple oaths of silence, that you might slit your own throat and disembowel yourself before speaking of the things said in the temple? do you know of the horrors of all but compulsory missionary service?

do you know about the cult tactics the church uses to keep its members from leaving? did you know the church is centered around making the member feel never good enough, never as perfect as they need to be? do you know about the honor codes at BYU and that you can get removed from the school or fired from your job for leaving or speaking against the church?

like, does literally anyone talking about mormonism here care about any of that?

and if we're going to hyperanalyze sanderson's beliefs, which i really think is someones personal business unless they specifically state otherwise, especially if saying the wrong thing (particularly as a public figure) can come with severe consequences, from my own opinion and perspective as an ex-mormon, i really dont think he holds hate in his heart for the marginalized groups he is attempting to portray. i think he genuinely cares about doing a good job and having diversity in his books and doesnt think its against god to do so. obviously the environment of his upbringing prevents him from having as honed of an instinct when it comes to diversity as some of us might prefer, but let's not pretend that it's malice or disgust driving unpreferable decisions when thats not what we have evidence of. a nevermo reader might not pick up on it, but sanderson constantly writes themes and narratives contrary to the teachings of the church (looking at you cytonic). he is not bound to the beliefs of the church, as such is the case with many members especially nowadays with all the cultural shifts happening.

so when someone who knows nothing about mormonism takes a narrative decision they find unfavorable and claims its a result of the mormon influences, really consider if its because its actually related to mormon attitudes or if its because mormonism is a convenient scapegoat of which people dont seem to care to know the real truth and problems behind. like, asking the question "how might sandersons religious views and upbringing impact the way he wrote the narrative here?" is such a good and interesting question, but you can only get real meaning from it if you actually know a thing or 2 about mormonism to begin with. hey, watch some john dehlin, i met the guy once, he's great, and the mormon stories podcast is always interesting and informative. or like browse the exmormon subreddit. idk. i feel like actually learning about these things and doing what you can to support victims in this hell church does so much more good than complaining on a website that an author didnt write the story how you wanted and blaming it on his faith in a way that's not even accurate or adding anything to the conversation

[pocketramblr]

i'm afraid of falling into another rabbit hole but by this point i'm super curious so if it's ok can i ask you what it is the stormlight archive?

oh yes anon, you may absolutely ask... actually yes, come just a bit closer too... yes, closer...

Anyway, The Stormlight Archive is an epic fantasy series inside another, larger fantasy series, The Cosmere. If you’ve heard of Mistborn, that’s in the Cosmere too, just on a completely different planet. Stormlight focuses on one planet, Roshar, where hurricane level storms regularly blow across the continent and everyone just kinda has to deal with it. Magic, or Investiture, comes in two main forms- Stormlight, which is replenished by those storms i mentioned and stored in gems for light and power, and Spren, which are basically manifestations of how people perceive concepts- wind spren are little silvery ribbons and leaves blowing around, awe spren are puffs of blue smoke around surprised people’s heads, and shame spren are petals that blow around you when you’re embarrassed. I’ll be honest, its a very anime aesthetic between the spren sfx and the giant swords people are swinging around. 

Plotwise, Stormlight is about a lot of things- Kaladin’s a character with chronic depression even before his tragic backstory, and how he copes with that varies over the books while also being that Fantasy Hero Who’s Driven To Protect People. Dalinar is a character trying to fix a country thats constantly spiraling into war and figuring out what he actually believes in, Shallan is juggling arcs about saving her family, realizing where she is privileged and how to be better, and figuring out her own neurodivergence. Adolin is sunshine incarnate trying to figure out his own morality from the shadow of his father’s rather strict view of the world, and Renarin... i can’t say much about him without spoilers, but he’s just a gem of a character. There’s also overarching plots about war, colonialism, racism, ableism, how absolutely crucial intersectionality is for making anything better, gender roles in various societies, religion, a bit of romance but not a lot and not for every single character. oh, and lotsa found family. OH, and people’s eyes glow when they use magic powers, which. i’m utterly weak for. 

This series has, by the end of the fourth book, at least one canonical trans character, a canonical ace character, a canon bi/pan character- and a second ‘twitter confirmed’ bi character, a canon gay man and his boyfriend, another canonical mspec man, a character with the best written depression i have ever seen, a character with anxiety, an autistic character, a character with DID, a paraplegic, a character with body dysphoria, a character with adhd, a character who is mute, and..... ok there’s more rep i cant think of right now, but there’s also a lot of buildup that seems like at least two more characters, if not three or four also hinted at and whatever new characters come in, will be coming out of the closet by the end of the series. The women are, imo, better written than in other fantasy books even by this author (who is Brandon Sanderson, aka Brando Sando, aka Branderson, aka the Sandman, aka Writing Machine Go Brrr. we have a lot of nicknames for him.) There’s also only one main character who would be considered white on earth, though being on a fictional planet the fictional races don’t have a 1:1 match- the Makabaki would probably look Afro-Asian to most of us, the Alethi east Indian or Polynesian, etc.

The thing about all of that- the magic system, the worldbuilding, the characters, the plot, the representation- its all good, but, and this might be important for you: its all slowburn. Very slowburn. the books are HUGE, as in they can’t even be published as one single book in europe, and by the time they got to the third book they had to switch to thinner paper so they could keep it in one volume in the states. Kaladin’s the MC and main POV character in the first book, and he’s not even in the prelude, the prologue, or 90 percent of the first chapter! this is the slowest of burns, and we’re only 4 books published of 10- though there are also 2 novellas, taking place right after book 2 and book 3. But i enjoy slowburn, and i really enjoy fantasy series. So i would recommend it. If any of this has appealed to you... come read it too. just jump down the rabbit hole. come into my little box trap.

[pbandjesse]

Today was a pretty good day but I hurt my wrist a little and Im feeling really tired. It was a long day. 

I did not feel good last night. So I didnt sleep super good and woke up very tired. James said goodbye to me and I just laid there for almost an hour. I was breathing okay again but I was still feeling bummed and weird. 

I got up and dressed. Took me a while but I did it. I ate breakfast and played animal crossing. I really liked my outfit. I felt cute. I was in a good mood today. 

I did do a little drawing in the studio. Just fixing yesterdays squishmallow drawing. I wasnt in the mood to do much more. Mostly because it was freezing in here. 

The radiators were not working (thankfully fixed now) and it was hard to do much of anything. 

I sat in the kitchen and had lunch. Tried to pep myself up. But soon enough I was off to work. 

Except I got down the street and realized I lost my mask?? I think I dropped it when I went to dump a soda out of the car before I pulled away from the parking spot but I could not find it. So I had to circle back and get a new mask and it was way warmer than I was expected so I had to change my coat too. 

I was really worried I was going to be late but it ended up being fine and I clocked in at exactly 1pm. Amazing. 

It was a better day overall. I was with kindergarden and the girls were really excited because they won the door contest. So that was exciting. And honestly I had a good time. 

I did some ballet with the girls. Showed them some stuff. Then they had a yoga class so that was interesting to watch. Not everyone wanted to participate and I think the other teacher was annoyed with me for not forcing them. But also like. Who cares. Its yoga. The teacher wasnt even very good at it, she kept being like. I dont know what to do next. It was weird. At least most of the kids had fun. 

We did some sewing. We did some art. We took the valentines door down. There were two meltdowns but they were handled. Im not the best at dealing with those because Im like. Please use your words and dont whine at me. Im not a mind reader. But it all worked out. 

One of the funny things today was one of the little girls telling me I was light skinned and then telling me about what other teachers were also white. I said me and her had brown eyes! And she was like. I have brown skin! And white palms! And black hair! And Im like. Yes! These are all true things! Kids are so cute. 

I had a few different art things going at once. I had some kids painting on fabric. Others sewing. Some drawing on my tablet. It was a fun night. And when someone was allowed to go home early I said I would stay. And that was nice actually. I got to talk to my coworkers more and that was nice. 

But at 6 it was time to go. I got to take home a bag of potatoes and shallots. And off into the night I went. 

The bag of potatoes made the car think there was another passenger. So I had to pull over and deal with that. But soon enough I was home. 

Brandon was here getting vegan cookies James made him. But he left soon after I got back here. James made dinner and then my new balance board came and that was cool. We played with that a little. Hoping that helps with core strength but also James just loves it so thats nice. Im glad it will get lots of use. 

I got a shower because I was cold and tired. And now Im in bed with James. He's reading. And Im listening to a video. Im looking at info about the piercing Im getting tomorrow. Im nervous!! But I think it will be a good time. Wish me luck everyone. Sleep good everyone! Goodnight!

[anythingandeverything1d]

Dont Leave

Part 1:

It was nearly midnight. You had finally convinced your friend to leave after promising that you would 1. not leave the house, 2. not drink, 3. not call Harry and finally 4. you would just go to bed. Well you had attempted all four of those promises with a good effort and succeeded in only one of them. So now you stood in the middle of a dance floor, a few drinks in, and dancing with some guy whose name you couldn't remember. Oops. I tried. You weren't having fun, but Steve, no Brandon yeah his name was definitely Brandon, was having a blast. He was all over you, running his fingers up your arms and down your back pulling you closer against his body. He moved his hand up the underside of the dress you were wearing and tugged at your underwear. You typically didn't let any of this happen with random strangers, but who cares at this point. Your mind continued slipping back to Harry. How he had left you a second time. How you had actually believed him. How you had let him convince you he actually cared. All of it swirled around your head making you dizzy, or was that the vodka? All you knew was that it was over and you were never going to see him again. You pushed Brandon off  and moved towards the bar. One more drink and I’ll leave. Brandon, not getting the hint or not caring followed you, tugging your arm a little too hard towards the door. “Let go.” you slurred attempting to push him off again. 

“Lets just go back to my place, talk, maybe get some food? How does that sound beautiful?” Beautiful...thats what Harry called me. Brandons fingers tightly gripped your wrist and the pain was pulling you from your thoughts.

You shook your head again and mumbled no but he pulled you towards the door anyways. “Let me go” you whined trying to pull your wrist free of his grip. “You're hurting me...” Brandon laughed and kept tugging making his way into the parking lot. “Seriously stop. Let me go.” you said instantly sobering up. Another hand grabbed your other arm tightly and pulled you back a step away from Brandons car. 

“I believe she said to let her go.” the deep voice growled at Brandon. Your heart stopped and skipped a beat. This isn’t happening...no way. You had actually driven 45 minutes out of your way to avoid this situation at all costs. How the hell is he here right now..You refused to look up and Brandon refused to drop his grip. 

“I believe I was dancing with her first.” 

“You may have danced with her but she's mine. She always will be. If you don't remove your hand from her I will forcibly remove it for you. I suggest letting her go now while you have the choice.” Your heart ached when listening to the words he had threatened Brandon with. She's mine...he doesn't actually mean that though. He wouldn't have left if he did..Harry’s guard walked up behind him and Brandon stumbled back, dropping your wrist and pushing you into Harry. What a gentleman, you thought watching Brandon scramble to open the car door.

“Whatever man. She's no fun anyway.” Brandon said climbing into the car and driving off. Thats what you think asshole. Harrys grip on your other arm loosened once Brandon’s car was out of sight and he took a step back from you. You finally looked up at him, his green eyes were full of something you didn’t quite recognize. Disappointment? Anger? Sadness? It seemed to be a mixture of things. He looked you up and down before opening his arms. “Are you okay?” His voice was barely a whisper. You just stood there not moving, confused and angry. You never broke eye contact with Harry though. You just stood there a few feet away trying to figure out what was happening. His arms were still open, expecting you to rush into them like he was some kind of savior and hero.

“What you think just because you saved me from that guy that I’m going with you?” You knew it was unreasonable to lash out at him but you weren't about to give in as easily as last time and let the heartbreak hurt more than it already had. Harrys arms fell to his side before he moved them back through his hair with a frustrated movement. I’m not about to let you win this..Not this time. “Well Harry what prize would you like this time? Another kiss that you could just run out on again? I know how about I make some false promises about my feelings toward yo-” He cut you off his arms grabbing your wrists and pulling you into his chest, his lips locked on yours begging for a response. You pushed back against him hard and stood a foot away from him. Tears were running down your cheeks and your mind was a mess. 

“(y/n)...”

“No stop. Just fucking stop Harry. I can't do this. I can't play these games with you. Not anymore.” You felt sick, your head was spinning, or maybe the room was you weren't sure. 

“I know I left, but I can explain and I’m sorry I didn't stay to explain earlier.” Harry took a step towards you. “(y/n) I only left because I knew what I wanted. I knew in that moment I wanted you more than anything, more than my career if needed. I went to my management team, and told them to fuck their rules. I wasn't going to play their being single game anymore, I want you by my side through everything. Yeah I shouldn't have just left without saying anything but my mind was clouded and I wanted to make things right. I knew leaving would hurt but I needed to get that sorted out before I came back for you to tell you-”

“To tell me what Harry? That you love me? How can you even say that right now?” ugh I need to sit something is not right. You looked around for a bench or chair anything really but all that was available was the cold and very wet pavement. 

“I do love you! I love you more than anything. I know I need to regain your trust but babe I want us back. I want to work on things together. I need you in my life, even if you just want to be friends... just please (y/n)...please let me fix this.”

You were trying to focus on his words and a comeback for what he was saying..you really were but the drinks were not sitting well in your system and you wobbled a little to the side. Harry watched you sway and reached his arm out to steady you. You wanted to swat his arm away but instead grabbed on for dear life and fell slightly into his chest. “I don't feel good” you whined looking up at him with tears welling in your eyes. You never were good at holding your alcohol. “Harry-.” and with that you moved out of his arms reaching towards the grass and vommiting most of what you had consumed that night. Harry followed closely, holding back your hair and rubbing your back. He whispered soft words to calm you. A minute later you sat on the wet pavement exhausted, sick, and drunk. Harry sat next to you, not saying anything. Finally he looked over at you, tears in his eyes.

“I’ll just leave.”

Ouch. Okay here we go again. He stood up and walked towards the car pulling around. Not this time. Nope. You don't get to play this game again. “Harry Edward Styles.” He stopped dead, turning to face you. You stood up and walked over poking his chest. “You are a fucking idiot. Why are you leaving. You just come here and say all those things and you just-you just leave again? I don't think so. I-”

He cut you off, his lips attacking yours. They pressed firmly against yours and his tongue maneuvered its way into your mouth. You fell into him, your hands grasping his shirt tightly. There was no refusing this kiss.. His arms supported your body weight and he deepened the kiss. Camera lights flashed around you and you broke the kiss. Harry defensively stood between you and the paparazzi. He carefully guided you to his car and opened the passenger door, pushing you in and making sure you were buckled. He then hopped in the driver side and drove off. You didn't say a word, just waited for him to get to wherever he was going. Your eyes drift close and your head falls against the window. When you wake up you are nestled into Harry’s chest as he walks you to your door. “I couldve walked..” you mumble snuggling deeper into him.

“You looked so peaceful....I didnt want to wake you.” Harry sighed and pushed the door open, carrying you up to bed and carefully tucking you in. He pressed a kiss against your forehead and started to walk away. 

“Don't go..” you said suddenly very awake. You sat up and grabbed his hand. “Please...stay.”

“(y/n)..” he started looking away. “You're drunk...exhausted..and I think you need to sleep.”

“I do need to sleep. But I need to sleep with you...please. I haven't been able to sleep on my own for weeks. Stayyyy” you beg. Eventually he smiles and gives in. Dropping his pants to the floor you whistle. “Damn Styles.” he laughs and shakes his head while pulling off his shirt and climbing in next to you. You snuggle into him, tracing his tattoos and then kissing his jaw. “Promise me. You'll never leave again.”

“I promise I will never leave again. I want you now and forever. You’ll be sick of me and still won't get me to leave.”

“I’ll never get sick of you” You climbed on top of him, your legs straddling his waist. You kissed his lips hard slowly biting them and pulling away. His hands traveled up your waist pulling your shirt over your head. You rocked against his body slowly causing him to lay back and breathe harder. He soon took control, kissing down your now bare chest. His lips playing with the soft skin on your boob and then making his way down your stomach. He carefully pulled your shorts off and moved to his next. Kissing your lips he pressed his length inside you. You groaned into the kiss, your nails digging into his back and his body pushing father into you and then pulling out faster. Harry had his hands over you chest, playing with each nipple. 

“Fuck baby” he whispered against your lips. “Im close.” You rolled your hips into his.

“Do it.” you breathily whispered. He did. He groaned and fell on top of you, both of you now sweaty. His kissed you sweetly before climbing off you and heading to the bathroom. You were exhausted. Your eyes were closing as you saw him head down the stairs. “Harry...”

“I’m just getting water babe, I’ll be back shortly.” He came back a few minutes later with two cups of water. He drank one and handed one to you before climbing back in bed. “Come on now...we both need sleep.” You nodded, snuggling into him and falling asleep to the sound of his heart beat against your ear. 

“(y/n)...” your friend wandered up to your room. “How are you doing toda-” her voice stopped. You opened your eyes. Her mouth was open. Harry stirred next you, sitting up with a gentle and sleepy yawn. “Oh my god”

Harry grinned, kissed your cheek, grabbed the sheets and stood up pulling them around his waist. I’m just gonna go grab us all some breakfast. He grabbed his shorts and ran downstairs. You looked at your friend with a guilty look. “I know what you're going to say..”

“I’m happy for you.”

“What?”

“I’m glad Harry’s back. I’m glad you're back to yourself. I know you love him. It just worries me..”

She sat next to you on the bed and you sighed. “I know. I do trust him though..I love him so so much. I don't think he’s leaving again.”

“I’m not.” Harry said coming back in with donuts from downstairs. He was dressed again and stood in front of you and your friend. “I swear I’m not going anywhere. Now or ever. I love you more than I love anything or anyone. You're my person. I was stupid not to see it at first but I do now.”

You smiled and your friend rolled her eyes taking a donut. “Better not Styles. I’ll kill you.”

You and Harry laughed. “There won't be a need.” Harry promised kissing your cheek and handing you the other donut. “I’m here for good.” You smiled at him and at your friend. Life was finally back to normal.

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I forgot about this one lol but here it is. Its a little rough but I wasn’t super into the story line anymore.

Hope you like it! xoxo

[thatbitchinsneakers]

The Bachelorette Season 16 Episode 2

Ok here we go. Episode 2. Can’t say I’m excited but I am definitely ready.

The episode starts with a view of none other than the La Quinta resort. Chris Harrison walks in to a room full of testosterone and dicks immediately go hard. He announces that it is time for date one. The date card that was written by an ABC intern is read, and dicks immediately go soft when they hear that they do in fact have to go on a date with Clare. 

The thing that has me laughing so hard is how unbelievably low budget this season is. Like the date is in a room with fake grass and a fake tower and they have to basically just tell Clare that they aren’t here for the Instagram followers, but here to be “open” and “honest” with her. Every other season is like “the group date will be going a remote island where Beyonce will be putting on a private concert and then she will flash her cooter to you and ONLY you and you’ll hold these memories forever” and then this season is like max budget is $50 per date. I guess when you’re 39 and have been on 5 different seasons of the bachelor, ABC just doesn’t have the effort anymore. Sorry Clare. Also, these “gifts” these men are giving her like I just refuse to believe someone was packing and thought “oh okay I’m gonna bring an entire chess set so I can give Clare the Queen and pretend I’m gonna treat her like a Queen”. Sorry but I’m calling BS on this one!

The physical touch part was pretty stupid too, I’m not gonna lie. Another extremely low budget activity. Actually, maybe those eye masks cost about $2 per person. Anyway, nothing like touching a girl who you’re all simultaneously dating in a room full of other horny dudes!

This “after party” is truly hilarious. Clare is literally BEGGING someone to ask to pull her aside. Harvard magically grows balls and asks her to talk. He is trying to explain that they just had suuuuch a good time with each other that nobody wanted to talk to Clare. So of course she has to make a scene cause there wouldn’t be a season without a few big scenes from 39 year old Clare! Also loving this fight with the men about whether or not someone is allowed to “speak for the group”. Like oh my god this fight is not even worth watching. Why can’t you guys fight about who fucked random girls before quarantine started? Ugh I’m bored. She ignores one guy who was actually like “ok let me fix this and talk to you” and was like nah fuck you where’s Dale. And the first “I can see myself falling in love with her” has arrived! A sentence that truly does not even make sense. 

When Clare is asked what she wants in a husband, she says “I want someone who appreciates my assertiveness and stand right beside me and be like ‘thats my girl’” Okay so Clare is saying she needs a giant pussy for a husband. Noted.

Next, we see Yosef setting himself up to be the villain of the season. Love this for him. He’s going to use any excuse to find something wrong with her, even though he knows he is on a full blown reality TV show where everything is planned and nobody is actually themselves. Every season needs a villain though!

Jason is chosen for this next date and Clare claimed she picked him because she thought he needed this like therapeutic date. How dare she like assume he needs therapy? Like WHAT?!?! How offensive!!! Also she didn’t fucking pick him to go on the date, the producers obviously did. This date is like so intense for no reason too like ?! Instead of some lavish date with unlimited champagne and a private helicopter, he has to sit on the beach and listen to Clare talk about how she’s unlovable. Sorry but this is legit miserable. Moving on. Wait I’m back. WHY THE FUCK IS SHE BRINGING THE DRESS SHE WORE WHEN SHE WAS REJECTED?!?!?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS BITCH!!!! LIKE ACTUALLY WHO TOLD HER THIS WAS OKAY.

The next date - dodgeball! Another extremely low budget date on the tennis courts of the La Quinta. Clare is like “lets play strip dodgeball” and everyone is like um no? Team Blue Balls though - that was a nice touch. Someone describes the night as “getting crunk” and I would like him voted off the island immediately. And who is this random dodgeball referee? Was he covid tested? Or is he just an ABC intern they had to bully to play the ref of a dodgeball game at the La Quinta? So many questions! This dodgeball game is actually extremely inappropriate and very unlike the Bachelor franchise. Making men strip to a jock strap? Clare I know you’re an ancient dinosaur that hasn’t been laid in like 12 years but why is this necessary? So not only do all the boys have to see each other ass naked but the producers, camera crew, producers etc have to see it too? Then Clare pulls out “cheers to the balls!” in her toast. I absolutely cannot do this.

This one on one time where Brandon is like “I knew I wanted to meet you the second I saw you were the bachelorette” and then says “ well I don’t know anything about you” and like stuttering and can’t find the words to say to her other than that she’s beautiful has me actually laughing out loud. Did absolutely nobody coach you on this before?! Like he can’t tell her one thing he likes about her and it’s truly hilarious. I mean honestly I respect the fuck out of her that she’s like okay I don’t have time for this please leave. Byeeee Brandon! See you on Instagram tomorrow! 

“I know what I’m looking for and I know what I like” ok no shit Clare you’re 100 years old and have been on a million bachelor shows like if you didn’t know what you liked by now I’d be so worried.

Well, that’s all for this week. Not much drama unfortunately. Oh well. See yall next week for the shittiest season of the Bachelorette!

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Love and Leather /part thirty five/

Word Count: 8.2k

A/N: Ya’ll, my feelings are fucking hurt after writing this. Please enjoy.

Warnings: Drugs, language, alcohol, extreme angst

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“Time to wake up! It’s noon and your guests will be here in a few hours!” Mom was over exuberant as she opened my bedroom door. I groaned as I sat up in bed noticing Nikki was already gone. I rubbed my eyes and looked up at her.

“Where’s Nikki?” I asked her, she smiled sweetly at me while walking over to my bed as she sat down at the foot of it, “He’s downstairs, the boys are enjoying the pool.” I nodded as I got out of the bed, starting to rummage through the closet for what I could wear today.

“Are you dating him?” I exhaled deeply, I didn’t want the interrogation this early in the morning, or afternoon I should say. “We’re just friends, mom.” I replied, getting irritated because nothing looked good to wear.

“And you have...sex with him?” She asked, trying to clarify for herself, “Yes mom, we’re friends and I sleep with him.”

“Well, why aren’t you dating him? I saw the way you two interact last night and from an outsider looking in, you two act like you’re already in love.” I rolled my eyes as I sat down at the vanity, ha. I wiped off the remaining smudges of make up that were from last night.

“No we don’t, we’re just best friends, I know everything about him, and he knows everything about me. I’m not in love with Nikki.” I explained, as she let out a huff, “Well does he love you?” I shook my head, “No, he doesn’t. He’s even said it. We’ve already talked about it mom, just let it go.” I knew by the way mom looked at me she knew I was getting upset.

“Why are you getting mad?” She asked, walking over to me as she helped fix my hair from the rats nest it was in.

“I’m not, just everyone thinks Nikki and I are more than what we are and it’s annoying. Why can’t a guy and a girl just be friends?” I asked, she let out a laugh, “Honey, they usually don’t sleep together when they are friends.” I rolled my eyes, “I trust Nikki, and he’s there for me whenever I need him.” Sighing in contempt as I thought about him.

“But are you there for him?” Mom asked, “Thats the important part, I know you are very skeptical about relationships.” She continued on, “I try to be. He’s very difficult sometimes, and it’s frustrating.” I explained as I finished brushing my hair, now parting it for two French braids.

“Why’s it frustrating?” I put the brush down, turning around to look at her, “Cause mom! He says things sometimes! And he does things that only a boyfriend should be saying and doing! Like every time he’s away on tour, he calls and we tell each other how much we miss one another! And I spend hours into the nights with him just talking about everything and anything! And he, he just looks at me a certain way sometimes, and when he does that I can’t breathe.”

Mom smiled, “Sounds to me like you two have something to talk about.” I shook my head, “I’d be so scared to be in a relationship with him. He’s one of rock n rolls biggest bad boys and I see what he does on a daily basis.” I confessed to her as I finished the braids and as Nikki walked through the closed bedroom door.

“Oh, you’re already up.” He says, smiling at me as he leaned against the door. Mom looked back and forth between him and I. “Well, I’m gonna talk to Loretta and see when catering will be here.” She said, scooting pass Nikki and leaving.

“What was that about?” He asked coming over and kissing the top of my head, “Just a mother and daughter talk.” I mumbled, as he nodded and sat down on the bed.

I think what I said last night made things awkward.

“We’re okay, right?” I questioned, looking at him through the mirror.

“Why do you ask that?” He seemed curious, but the smirk on his pink lips said otherwise. I shrugged my shoulders, “Dunno, just asking.”

I stood up and walked over to my closet, grabbing a pink bikini and putting it on quickly. “Can you tie these?” I asked Nikki, turning my back towards him as he grabbed the strings. When he was done, he lowered his head and kissed my bare shoulder.

“We are fine, Princess. Don’t worry.” He reassured me, I quickly nodded as he gave me a smile. “I just think eventually, we will have to have a conversation you don’t want to have.” My gaze met his, “Not now.” I quickly spoke, stepping away from his embrace. I saw him roll his eyes out of the corner of my eye.

“Just...not right now.” I breathed out, pulling on a pair of short daisy dukes. “When?” Nikki asked, I groaned as i opened up my bedroom door.

“I don’t know. Just forget I said anything last night.” I muttered, looking down at the white carpet then back up to him. “I think you’re just scared of being happy with me.” I scoffed at his response.

“I am going downstairs and I’m not talking about this again, Nikki.” I roughly spoke as I turned my back to him, hearing him mumble under his breath all the way down the stairs.

“Good morning sweetheart, I have breakfast for you outside. Your guests should start arriving in around two hours.” Loretta explained, placing a cup of coffee in my hand, “Are you bringing your kids today? I always liked hanging around Jason and Brandon.” I asked, smirking as a I saw Nikki’s glare when he walked behind Loretta to grab a water.

“Yes, they both will be here. You know they have such a soft spot for you.” I smiled, nodding as Nikki’s face turned sour. I watched him quickly leave the kitchen, slamming the back door before going outside.

I was quickly sidelined by a towel being swatted against my arm, “Ow, Loretta.” I yelped, rubbing the red spot on my arm, “I saw you two last night in the hot tub.” I felt my face get warm, “Uh...we were just...um..” I couldn’t muster a sentence as she smirked at me.

“I was really drunk last night.” I explained, but she waved me off, “Greyson already blabbed about it, seems you are a wild child, hermosa.” She retorted, “The boy seems...nice. Gloomy. But nice.” I scratched the top of my head, awkwardly standing next to her.

“We’re just friends.” She laughed at me when I said that, “Ingenuo, ingenuo, ingueno.” She cackled, continuing to chop up some stuff for later.

“I am not naive!” I defended myself, “As much as I love your mother, she is naive just like you are. I don’t believe you for one second when you tell me you and him are just friends.” She explained.

“It’s in the eyes, Bonita. The eyes never lie.” I rolled my eyes, “Don’t roll your eyes at me, or I’m telling your mother you stole the key to get the booze.” I immediately stopped, “Sorry..” I quietly apologized to her.

I shortly left the kitchen. I went outside walking past the boys as I felt their eyes follow my ass. I sat down with Mick at the table.

“How many chicks have you fucked so far?” I had heard Nikki ask Vince, “Uh...three.” I looked at Mick as we both rolled our eyes.

“No not today, on the tour.” Nikki clarified as I started eating the fruit and English muffin on the plate in front of me, “Oh...I lost count after that gang bang in Salt Lake City.” I forced the vomit back down, “That was fun.” Nikki laughed, lounging back on the pool chair.

“How about you old man?” Vince giggled as he asked Mick.

“Don’t you guys realize that the girls you fuck, probably fuck every rockstar that comes through town?” Mick questioned, making all three of those idiots bust out in laughter.

“We’re like pussy brothers with the whole scene.” Tommy added on, making the other two laugh again.

“Unlike you clowns, I happen to respect the females of our species.” Mick retorted, “Thanks, glad to know there’s still gentleman out there.” I added on making Mick give me a sweet smile.

I watched as mom, and I’m assuming the party planner arrange yellow and white balloons around the backyard.

“Whose ready to have some fucking fun?” Greyson yelled walking out in swim trunks, “Grey, don’t cuss!” Mom was quick to correct his behavior.

“We need to get him laid.” Tommy pointed out, “He’s still a virgin?!” Vince laughed, as I rolled my eyes.

“He’s never even had a girlfriend.” I told them, “Dude...set him up with one of your friends.” Tommy said, nudging my arm.

“I have tried, but he’s really shy around girls.” I explained.

“Hey Vanity, you want to go for a swim?” Greyson snickered, “Fuck you.” I retorted, standing up to go see what mom was planning.

“No, we’re going!” Greyson shouted, wrapping me up and dangling me over the deep end of the pool.

“Greyson! Stop!” I shouted, but he started lowering me into the water, “Mom!!!” I yelled for her but she wasn’t doing anything about it.

“Oh come on, Vanity! You’re twenty six years old now! It’s time to get over the fear of water!” Greyson yelled in my ear.

“ Greyson, c’mon, put her down.” Nikki spoke up, 

“Lucky your boyfriend is here.” Greyson whispered, putting my feet down on the concrete that surrounded the pool.

“Asshole!” I shouted before shoving him in.

I shook it off, walking over to mom and the party planner as they were discussing things. “I think we should have the music over here, that way everyone is not tripping over wires.” I looked at the papers they were going over.

“Why hire someone when we have the band, I’m sure they would perform for us?” I asked Mom, “Oh, no, no. We hired another band.” The party planner spoke out. “A cover band.” I rolled my eyes.

“A fucking cover band? Really?” I scoffed, “Vanity.” Mom muttered my name sternly. “This is the food you’re getting? I don’t like half the stuff on here.” I pointed out, becoming upset as Mom knew all these things.

“Red velvet cake?! Mom, I hate red velvet! I told you I wanted white cake with yellow and pink frosting.” I whined, knowing I was on the edge of throwing a tantrum.

“I love red velvet.” Nikki said, walking up behind me, placing his hand on my lower back. “Well it’s my party, and I don’t want it.” I defended myself.

“Princess, don’t be a brat. Your mom is just doing something nice for you.” Nikki sided with my mom.

“We can perform a few songs, if you wanted.” Nikki added on, “They hired a cover band.” I explained, watching the expression on his face twist to annoyance.

“A cover band? Just hire a real band.” Nikki laughed, “They better not cover any of my songs.” Nikki mumbled.

“Just go away. You’re complicating everything, Vanity.” Mom spoke to me as I rolled my eyes, “Well maybe if you asked me beforehand, I wouldn’t be complicating things.” I snapped at her, but she ignored me.

I huffed as Nikki trailed his hand up and down my back, “Come.” He said, wrapping his hand around mine and pulling me to the pool.

I laughed, “You have me so fucked up, right now.” I watched as he stepped into the pool, trying to pull me in with him.

“Nikki, no.” I let go of his hand as he gave me a stern look, “I’m not taking no for an answer, you’re getting in the pool. Look it’s shallow.” He motioned as I grumbled. I unbuttoned the shorts I was wearing, getting a whistle from Tommy and Vince as I pulled them down my legs, before throwing it at them.

The shallow part of the pool was already waist deep for me. “I’m not going any further.” I protested, crossing my arms against my chest.

“Doll, just...c’mere.” He spoke softly, taking my hand and pulling me towards him. I was hesitant as he started pulling me towards deeper water.

“No..no...” I said, trying to push away from him but his arms were wrapped around me like a vise grip. My hands gripped his shoulders as I was barely touching the bottom of the pool.

“See, it’s fine. I got you.” He reassured me, pressing a soft kiss against my cheek.

“Nikki and Vanity sitting in a tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G.” I groaned when my annoying sister came outside. I quickly splashed water towards her to get her to shut up.

Nikki mumbled, placing kisses along my shoulder. His hands slid down to pick me up, my legs wrapping around his waist as he moved us to the deep end of the pool.

I clutched on to him as I stared at the bottom of the pool. “See? It’s not that bad.” Nikki chuckled, his hands gently rubbing my ass.

“You’re right, it’s actually quite worse.” I groaned, not breaking away from looking at the six foot deep pool, but to me it looked as if it went on forever.

Nikki’s hands let go of the back of my thighs, “No, Nikki. Please don’t.” I whined, clutching to him tighter as he laughed.

He pried my arms away from his neck, “Just relax...” He cooed, slowly taking my legs from the position they were in, he still had a hold around my waist.

I closed my eyes, muttering under my breath to try and calm myself down. I felt his arm unravel from my waist, “Nikki, I swear.” I groaned as he slowly pushed away from me leaving me in the middle of the deep end as he backed himself up to the wall of the pool.

I saw his stupid smile under his stupid sunglasses, “You’re literally the fucking devil.” I chimed in, as he laughed loudly, “But look at you, swimming in a deep pool. I’m proud of you.” He replied, giving me a wide a grin as I swam over to him.

I was quick to splash water in his face. He groaned, taking off his glasses and pushing them up. When the hair was out of his face I could actually see all of his facial features, his eyes were my favorite.

“You have gorgeous eyes.” I expressed as he laughed, shyly shaking his head as he put them back down on his face, “Hey man, it’s one. Didn’t you say you were going to meet Doc?” Tommy spoke out, “Huh? What are you talking about?” Nikki said, confused as Tommy gave him a look.

“oh..yeah, yes you’re right.” Nikki said, leaving me in the pool as he pulled himself up out and grabbed a towel.

“Where you going?” I asked following his movements, “Nikki?” I questioned again as he didn’t answer me, “I gotta...I gotta go see Doc.” He was quick to speak as he pulled a shirt on.

“My party starts in an hour....” I trailed off as he gave me a quick glance, “I know, I know. I’ll be back.” Nikki said, I backed up from him as he started walking to the door, but I followed him anyways.

“Nik...can’t it wait?” I asked, tugging on his wrist to get him to stop as he was in a hurry, but he didn’t even budge.

“Babe?” I spoke softly as he turned around to face me, “Princess, I’ll be back okay? I just gotta talk to him about stuff.” I huffed, giving myself a hug as I became cold outside of the water.

“Didn’t you guys talk enough last night? What else is there to talk about?” Nikki stood up tall as he looked down at me, “Nikki, I’m not dumb. Where are you going?” I was straight forward with him, not buying his bullshit for one moment.

“Vanity, it’s none of your damn business. I will be back.” Nikki snapped, swiftly opening up the door and closing it.

I went back outside and straight to T-bone, “Where is he going?” I asked, standing over him with hands on my hips, “Uh...to talk to Doc, duh. Didn’t you hear me?” Tommy giggled.

I rolled my eyes, quickly taking off his sunglasses, “Where is Nikki going?” I demanded, noticing that he couldn’t look at me. “T-bone. I won’t be mad, just tell me.” I said sweetly, my hand brushing over his thigh.

“I Uh...Sixx...um-“ “He went to go get you a present, he was telling me about it this morning.” Vince butted in, “Some jewelry place, I think.” He continued.

I felt rather stupid that I was getting worked up over it, “It’s okay, kid.” Tommy nudged my chin with his fist gently, “Sixx drives all the girls crazy.” He says with a laugh as I push him back against the chair.

“I’m gonna get cleaned up, I suggest you two do the same. You’re fine Mick.” I ordered, looking at them as I went back inside to get ready.

*Micks POV*

“You two shouldn’t of lied to her.” I mumbled, taking a swig out of my vodka filled water bottle.

“She’s gonna freak out when he comes back high.” I continued, “She’ll be fine. He’ll be fine. He said he was just gonna score some more smack and then be right back here. It’s fine.” Vince retorted, continuing to sunbathe.

“You better pray you are right about that one, blondie.” I retorted, groaning as the guys weren’t even listening anymore.

“I hope there’s some hot babes that come that will make me cum.” Vince said, making Tommy laugh as I rolled my eyes.

I continued drinking, hoping that Sixx wouldn’t come back fucked up. And if he did? I hope he knows what the hell he’s doing.

Vanity may be naive at certain times, but she can read through Nikki’s façade faster than anyone surrounding him. She knows when he’s high and when he’s not. I mean, except for last night…but she was just really fucked up.

Nikki likes to joke that he has this other side of him, almost another personality when he’s high and super fucked up. He calls it Sikki Nixx. And I hope for Vanity’s well being, he doesn’t make an appearance. I don’t know what she would do if she ever saw that side of him.

*Vanity’s POV*

I pulled up the yellow flowery dress that stopped not even mid thigh. I glanced down at my cleavage, “Nice.” I mumbled to myself before taking out the braids I had put in earlier, letting the loose waves dangle down to below my shoulders.

I put a touch of make up, the deep red shade filled out my lips, while the light golden eye shadow made my hazel eyes pop. I spritzed on some perfume before clasping the bracelet from Nikki around my wrist.

I walked downstairs, hearing music from the backyard and people chatting.

“There you are, honey! Come on, your guests are here.” I gulped, putting on a smile as I walked towards her, “Best behavior.” Mom whispered into my ear, as I nodded.

It was the same thing at every party. Every business fundraiser, every black tie gala I’ve ever been too. Mom always told me to be on my best behavior, to impress everyone and anyone. To put on my best million dollar smile and fake laugh at every joke a man said who is old enough to be my grandfather, ‘that’s where the money is, those are the investors’. Dads words echoed through my head.

Yeah it was a birthday party to celebrate me, but at the end of the day, it was for mom to prove that the Blackwoods’ were still the richest family in the American oil industry.

The first person to approach me was Melanie Smith, I went to private school with her. She’s an okay gal when she’s not drunk on three dry martinis.

“Oh Vanity, it’s so wonderful to see you. How have you been? I heard you were living in Los Angeles now?” I was about to answer her but she continued anyways.

“I was just in Los Angeles seeing a fabulous doctor, he worked on my nose.” She said, gripping my shoulders as she whispered the last part, “It looks great, Melanie.” I lied, I couldn’t tell the difference.

“If you can excuse me.” I said, seeing the boys laughing with Greyson across the yard. I didn’t see Nikki though.

I was cut off by Warren G. Davidson, he was still handsome as ever. Even if he was thirty years older then me, had four children and I think he was on his fifth wife…he could still get it anytime, anyplace, anywhere.

He was daddy’s right hand man, he was there at his bedside with us when he took his last breath.

“How are you sugar?” He said pulling me into a hug, I could smell the scotch on his breath.

I pulled away from his embrace, hands gripping his forearms as I looked at him, “I’m doing wonderful, I’m so happy you could be here.” I smiled joyfully, he was one of the few business people I could stand.

“As am I, I’m happy you came home. You’re mom has been telling me wild stories of you hanging out with a deranged group of guys.” The smile quickly left my face.

Has she told everyone about the band? Or about me and Nikki? Even if there wasn’t a me and Nikki?

“Oh, it’s nothing to worry about. They’re right over there, so excuse me.” I smiled apologetically as I let go of him.

“And there’s that fine piece of ass, come give me some love.” I groaned when I heard that voice.

“Roman, it’s not a pleasure to see you.” I grumbled as he pulled me into a tight squeeze.

Roman Davidson, Warrens second oldest son. And the guy I gave my first blow job too in the back of his Chevy truck. He is convinced we are meant to be. Soulmates is the word I believed he said one time.

His hand reached down to my ass, “Hands off.” I spoke up, gently pushing him away from me, “C’mon baby, stop denying me. I’ll make you feel like a million bucks.” I rolled my eyes as I walked away from him.

I was almost to the boys when my least favorite pair of blonde haired twins stopped me. Francesca and Andrea Copeland. They were the second richest family in the oil industry. They were also at the top of the socialite list here in Dallas. Apparently Vince has fucked one of them, or both. He said he couldn’t remember. It was back when Motley was still in their ‘Shout at the Devil’ days because they were virgins at the time, and that’s what Nikki and Vince wanted. Nikki swears up and down he didn’t fuck them. Did I believe him? No.

And when I mean virgins, I mean they only did it anally up until they met Vince fucking Neil.

“Please tell us how you found yourself wrapped up with Mötley Crüe?” Francesca asked me, I shrugged as I tried walking past them but they blocked me.

Did I mention that they use to pick on me in school? Daddy almost sued their family.

“We fucked them before you did.” Andrea spoke up, “Vince, Nikki and Tommy. Not that weird little one.”

“Hey, watch your fucking mouth! Don’t talk about Mick like that!” I snapped at them, “Guess she still has anger issues.” Andrea whispered into her sisters ear.

“And is now a little skank.” Francesca said, motioning to the dress I was wearing, before pointing to the bruise from Nikki on my neck.

I let out a sigh of relief as Tommy grabbed my arm, “Hello ladies, excuse me but I need to borrow little miss birthday princess for a moment.”

“Tommy, you remember me right?” Andrea said flirtatiously, as she stuck out her chest. “Uh….no.”

Tommy quickly dragged me inside, “You don’t understand how-“ I stopped talking when I saw Nikki being held up by both Vince and Greyson.

“Oh, baby…there you are. C’mere.” Nikki said, pushing away from the guys as he stepped towards me, wobbling on his feet.

“You’re fucked up.” I laughed bitterly, “I…yes..but let me explain.” Nikki said, holding up his finger as I waited for the great explanation this time.

“You told me…you told me to go find it. So I did.” He slurred his words, his eyes were all pupil and no color.

“You went to go find smack!?!” I screamed at him, shoving him against my front door, “Yes, cause you told me too. You didn’t fucking care.” He spat back.

“Oh fuck you, Nikki! You know that’s not what I fucking meant!!” I yelled at him, “Okay…just take a breath. People are looking.” Greyson got in between us.

I took a deep breath in and nodded, “Get your fucking act together, Nikki.” I warned him, shoving him against the door once more.

I quickly walked outside, going over to the make shift bar Mom had hired, “Shot of Jack.” I ordered, quickly shooting it down as he handed it to me.

“Don’t you think it’s a little early for that?” I smiled, recognizing their voice.

“I’ll take what she’s having.” My smile grew wider as I turned around, almost crying because I’ve missed them so much.

“Lucia! Tonya!” I shouted, quickly pulling both of them into a hug, “I can’t belie-you guys are are really here! Who talked to you!?” I shouted, pulling away from them, “Vinny and T-Bone, they called us a few days ago.” Tonya clarified.

“Well…spill it. How has life on the road been the last few months?” I laughed, “Round of Jack please.” I said looking at the bartender. “I don’t even know where to begin…” I trailed off, running my black painted nails through my hair.

“To sum it all up-“ I turned towards them, lifting up my dress so they could see the tattoo on my ass. They immediately started laughing, “Thats how it’s been.” I spoke, quickly fixing my dress and putting it down.

The girls stopped smiling when Nikki stumbled over, bumping into me and knocking over the glass, “Pull yourself together, you’re embarrassing me.” I said, grabbing onto his arm to make him stand up straight.

“I’m embarrassing? Cool.” He rolled his eyes, “Jack and Coke. Now.” He ordered, impatiently waiting as the man made his drink, “Hurry the fuck up. Don’t you know who I fucking am?” Nikki’s voice was full of rage.

The girls gave me a sympathetic look, “Nikki, please?” I begged him, “Pull it together.” His eyes wandered to the brunette that walked up to the bar.

“Hey, not in front of me.” I said, gripping his chin to make him look at me, “I’m not you’re fucking boyfriend.” He snarled, roughly pulling my hand away from his face.

I couldn’t fucking believe him. How dare he use that against me!

Nikki quickly brushed me off as he put up a front and acted completely sober as he talked to this chick. Lucia and Tonya quickly pulled me away from him.

“What the hell was that?” Tonya demanded to know, as I just shook my head, “It’s nothing, don’t worry about it.” I explained, as she rolled her eyes.

“It didn’t look like nothing? Is he drunk?” She asked me, “He’s high.” I said disappointed, “Really fucking high.” I bit my lip as I watched him get handsy with this girl. I’ve never felt a single ounce of jealousy once when it comes to the girls that surround him. I knew what I meant to him, even if it was unspoken between us. I knew that I had him and that he had me.

I pulled it together when Damien Hampton walked up to me. His great, great grandfather developed most of the houses on the historic district of Dallas. His family was oozing with money. And boy, was he a walking piece of sex.

“It’s nice to see you. Happy late birthday.” His words were smooth as he clutched a bottle of Heineken. His hand went through his slicked back black hair as he gave me a smoldering gaze.

“Thank you, thanks for coming. How is your mom?” He showed me his pearly whites through a side grin, “Shes good. She sends her best wishes. She had to take a trip to Miami for business.”

“Damien, this is Lucia and Tonya, they’re my friends from Los Angeles.” I introduced them, noticing the imaginary drool dripping out of their mouth as they Gawked at him.

“Hello ladies.” He said, sending a wink to both of them. He knew how hot he was and he used it to his advantages.

“Y’know, I never did get you that drink I promised you.” I laughed at his words, “That was three years ago. I’m surprised you remembered.” I retorted.

“Of course I remember baby girl. You were wearing a blue dress with black heels, your hair was curled in an up-do. And you looked sexy as hell. Still do. I like this dress.” He stated, his fingers fumbling with the bottom hem of the dress as he pressed his other hand to my lower back.

I felt the heat creep across my cheeks as he looked at me. He had killer blue eyes that I was currently drowning in. His lips tugged into a smirk that never faded away from his face.

“We’re gonna go talk to the guys.” Tonya said, “Yeah, go ahead.” I shooed them away as Damien and I continued talking.

“How about you and I take a trip up to your room real quick.” His breath was hot in my ear as he lowered his head down to me, “Like last time when you snuck me in.” I smiled, biting my lip as I thought about his offer.

“To hear those noises from you again, man.” He breathed out, loosening up his tie a little bit. I licked my lips as my hand ran over the front of his pants, teasing him just a little bit, “Maybe you can-“

“Hey baby, whose this?” I glared at Nikki as he clutched a bottle of beer, “Baby?” Damien asked, confused, taking a step away from me.

“Didn’t know you had a boyfriend?” Damien questioned, looking at Nikki, I could tell he was judging him. “He’s not-“

“Yeah I’m her boyfriend, she’s kinda shy about it.” Nikki interrupted me, roughly pulling me to his side, “Who are you?” Nikki asked, throwing an arm over my shoulder and taking a sip of his beer.

“Damien Hampton…And you’re Uh….Nikki Sixx. Big fan, dude.” I tried leaving Nikki’s side, but he wouldn’t let me.

“Nikki, stop.” I whispered into his ear, “Didn’t think you’d find yourself with a rockstar.” Damien chuckled.

“I’m lucky aren’t I? Isn’t she a nice piece of ass?” Nikki spoke out, roughly grabbing my bottom.

“Yeah, She is. We hooked up a few years ago.” I hated when guys talked about me like this. It made me feel like nothing but a piece of meat.

“Guess we won’t be taking a trip upstairs, now will we?” Damien smirked, as I could feel Nikki glaring at me. “It was nice talking to you.” Nikki abruptly put an end to the conversation as he pulled me away.

“God, you’re acting like a fucking pig.” I said, shoving him away from me as I scoffed in disgust at his actions.

Nikki laughed, “Now you want to speak up? I always talk like this.” I rolled my eyes, “No, you don’t. Not to me at least. I’m not one of these whores you fuck daily, Sixx.” I spat my frustrations out at him.

“You sure keep acting like it. I watched you throw yourself all over him.” He pointed out, making it seem like it was my fault.

“Unbelievable.” I muttered, exhaling as I tried to relax.

“Nikki…” I spoke softly as I cupped his jaw, “Please, I am begging you. Don’t ruin my party.” I pleaded with him, as he rolled his eyes.

“I know you’re mad at me.” He mumbled, “You’re right. I am extremely pissed off, livid even. You said you haven’t touched heroin in a few days, so what gives?”

“You told me to go find it.” I scoffed, “Nikki, that’s not what I meant. You know that.” I said, taking my hands off his face as he stepped away from me.

“You didn’t care when I told you, so don’t fucking start now. And don’t worry, I won’t embarrass you in front of all your rich, snobby friends. I’m probably gonna fuck a few of them later.” He grinned like the devil himself. I couldn’t stand the look on his face. I didn’t recognize anything about him. Usually it was tolerable as he would shoot up, pass out, wake up and say sorry for getting high. But this was different.

“Okay…” I said quietly as I watched him walk away from me.

I kept my eye on Nikki throughout every conversation I had, at one point he went inside with a blonde and came back out fifteen minutes later with a redhead. Then eventually he went inside by himself, only to come back out ten minutes later stumbling around even more.

I watched Mick pull him aside to talk to him, hopefully speaking some god damn sense to Nikki. I saw Nikki try to put up a fight, but Mick more then likely got stern with him as he shut down.

“Excuse me…I need another drink.” I said to the group of people I was pretending to listen too as I walked over to the bar

“Parties fun.” Tommy said, nudging my shoulder. I nodded, trying to put on a smile.

“I’m glad you’re enjoying yourself.” I spoke, as I ordered another glass of champagne. It wasn’t cutting it. But mom said ladies don’t drink beer when I tried to order one.

“I’m sorry about Nikki….I know he’s super fucked up right now.” Tommy gave me a sincere apology for his behavior, “Why would he even do this? He knew today was important.” I whined, trying not to get worked up and start crying in front of T-bone.

“I wanted to introduce him to some important people, but I can’t when he’s like this.” I explained to Tommy, feeling sorry for myself. I fucking knew better then to trust him.

“I don’t get him sometimes. Like last night he asked me to be his date to your wedding, and he was really sweet even after what I did at the strip club…and then he just does this? Like I’m nothing to him.” I vented my frustrations to Tommy. He started rubbing my back as he could tell I was getting worked up.

“I don’t know. He’s just being selfish…and clearly a fucking idiot. He’ll regret it when he finally passes out…but I don’t see that happening for a while. He’s pretty loaded, he said he shot up both coke and smack.”

“He’s gonna end up killing himself.” I said worrisome, “He’s fine. I think we’ll get him in rehab before that were to ever happen.” Tommy said, laughing at his own words.

“Rehab…right. Cause that would go over well.” I rolled my eyes, laughing with Tommy. “I see Vince has found himself some entertainment.” I added on, pointing to Vince and the four chicks that were in the pool with him.

“I give it an hour, he’ll probably take them all to the tour bus.” Tommy spoke, my attention being taken away as the band mom and the party planner hired started to play to the beat of ‘Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go.’ I actually really fucking hated this song.

“A fucking cover band? Really?” Mick said, walking up to us as clutched a glass of vodka, “Your mother always seems to amazes me. Really? A cover band? She couldn’t just ask us to play a few songs?” Mick exasperated, I shrugged. “I’m sure you guys could, but Nikki.” I motioned over to him, “He’s played fucked up before. Doesn’t sound good. But he’s done it.” Mick pointed out.

Nikki soon stumbled his way over to the three of us, “Hey man, get it together.” Tommy said, grabbing his shoulder and giving him a stern look.

“What? I’m fine. It’s all good T-bone.” Nikki retorted, I noticed smeared lipstick on the side of his neck.

“You’re certainly not all good, man.” Tommy spoke back, making Nikki roll his eyes, “Lighten up man. Stop fucking running to my band mates.” Nikki was quick to jump down my throat.

“You do it all the fucking time, it’s annoying.” Nikki continued as the guys looked at him unimpressed, “Leave her alone. You’re being an idiot.” Mick replied, jumping to my defenses.

“Don’t tell me what the fuck to do. She’s being a cunt.” I was quick to shove Nikki when he called me that.

“Knock it off or i’m kicking you out.” I threatened him, “Yeah? So you can be a fucking slut without me around? I’ve bet you’ve already fucked half the guys here.” Nikki’s words were cold as he glared at me.

“Y’know What Nikki? Maybe I will. Maybe I’ll go sit on someone else’s dick.” I retorted, noticing his jaw clench and fist balled at his sides.

“Don’t test him, he will snap.” Tommy said, putting his arm around my waist as he slyly whispered into my ear. I smirked at his words as I lightly pushed T-bone away from me.

“Yeah, maybe that’s what I’ll do. Go find a dick to suck since I’m such a big slut and have been with no other guy but you. Yeah, sounds good to me.” I was being petty as I slapped the side of Nikki’s shoulder before walking away from them.

Shortly after I found myself sitting on Duke Mitchell’s lap. His mom developed a program for under privileged youth. They get free meals over the summer when there’s no school, school supplies in the fall, and jackets when winter comes around.

Duke was also a rebound after Julian got arrested, maybe Nikki was right. I have fucked plenty of guys that were socializing in my back yard. Rebound after Julian, and now a guy to piss Nikki off. And I think it was working as his eyes haven’t left me once.

I felt Duke nibble on my ear, “Come back to my house when the parties over.” He whispered as he placed a gentle kiss on the side of my neck. His hands were getting dangerously close as he was rubbing my outer thigh.

“Let’s just go upstairs right now.” I muttered, running one hand through his blonde hair and the other over the tattoo he had on his chest that was peaking out of the half buttoned shirt.

“I like the idea of that.” He responded with a smirk as I got off his lap, reaching for his hand as we started walking inside.

I stopped when the microphone echoed, causing a loud piercing noise to sound off, “Shit, you’re short.” I heard Nikki’s voice through the amplifier, I am going to fucking kill him before the heroin has a chance too.

“Hello? Hey, yeah sorry about the noise.” Nikki grumbled into the mic, “Excuse me.” I said letting go of Dukes hand as I walked over to Tommy, Mick and Vince as they watched Nikki stumble around on stage.

Nikki adjusted the mic, “Ah, that’s better. As I was saying sorry for the noise. It’s not like it was as bad as they have been….you fucked up a lot of good songs.” I cursed under my breath, glaring at him as he looked at me.

“I just…I just wanted to say a few things to the birthday girl, give it up to Vanity!” Nikki clapped for me, as everyone followed his lead.

“Man, this girl…I swear…” Nikki said, pointing at me as he had a bottle of beer in his hand.

I saw a smirk spread across his lips as he leaned into the mic, “This girl…she pretends like she’s so god damn perfect, it’s honestly such an act. You deserve an Oscar, Van.” Nikki grumbled as the smile I was starting to get faded away.

He glared at me as he continued, “She doesn’t care about anyone here. She can’t stand any of you, she never fucking did. She cares about no one but herself. She might care about you when you put your dick inside of her to keep her busy.”

My lips parted as I scoffed, ignoring the judgmental looks I was getting and the whispers among everyone.

“But man, she’s got some grade A pussy. I’ve fucked a lot of chicks all over the world. But Vanity Blackwood’s pussy is the tightest I’ve ever had.” Nikki spoke out roughly, chugging the rest of his beer as he tossed the bottle down by my feet.

 I bit my lip, shaking my head at him as I felt tears starting to stream down my face. Both Tommy and Vince tried consoling me, telling me it’s just the drugs but I pushed them away.

Nikki looked over at me, “Aw, baby. Don’t cry…it’s okay. But I get it, I’m not good enough for you. Never have been and never will be, that’s why you string me along, right?” I shook my head as he chuckled darkly.

“Some CEO fuckwad would make everyone happy, including you. Can’t be with someone who will be in his grave sooner than the world knows. I’m just crashing and burning, doll.” Nikki stares at me, his eyes rolling as he shook his head.

“Why the fuck are you crying? I’m just a good fuck to you…enjoy the ride while it last Vanity. Cause I know you don’t give two shits about me, probably dealt with me for the drinks and the drugs and cause you know I fuck you better than anyone else you’ll ever meet.”

“Nikki, stop.” I cried to him, my voice breaking, but he continued his rant, “Going around the world for free just as long as you suck my cock, right?”

“Get him off the fucking stage. Now.” Greyson walked up, pulling me to him as I sobbed into his chest.

“Fuck you man, I’m not done.” I watched as Tommy and Vince try to wrestle him off the stage, but Nikki wasn’t moving.

I saw Mick throw his glass down on the grass, “Get off the fucking stage. You’ve done enough, sixx.” Mick said to him, forcefully grabbing Nikki by his arm and shoving him off.

“Get the fuck off me!!” Nikki shouted, shoving Vince away from him.

“Always gotta stop for the princess, right?” Nikki said, stumbling over to me but Greyson shoved him away.

I saw the look on Nikki’s face as he approached my brother, “Stop!!” I yelled at him, shoving him back, “Oh stop with the fucking tears, nobody fucking believes them!” Nikki growled as he gripped my arm roughly, pulling me to his chest.

“You act so fucking innocent and you’re not!! If it’s not the blow it’s the alcohol!” Nikki yelled in my face, his hot breath left me scorned.

“Let go of me!” I yelled back at him, shoving him away. He stumbled backwards, falling into a table that had gifts and my birthday cake on it, sending everything to the ground. Nikki looked at the presents, holding one up as he saw it was smashed under him. Nikki quickly glanced up at me seeing the tears and discomfort he’s caused.

“Vanity…I…babe, fuck.” He groaned, pulling himself off the table as he had icing all over him.

“I want him out.” I told Greyson as I began walking away from them. “Van, Vanity. Please wait.” Nikki chased after me, I turned around to see him stumble and bump into people. The guys quickly followed behind him.

“I want you out of my house!! I never want to see your face again!!” I screamed at him, his face winced at my words, “I…I’m sorry…I…Vanity please.” Nikki begged, reaching for my hand but I smacked his arm away from me.

“I hate you.” I scolded him, “Van, no you don’t…please, doll. Don’t kick me out.” His voice cracked, I could feel the sadness coming from him.

“I wish I never fucking met you, Nikki. Get out of my house. All of you. I’m done. This is done.” I spewed my anger out at him. For how pissed off I was, I’m very surprised with myself that I hadn’t hit him or broke something.

Nikki looked away from me, his jaw clenching as he nodded.

“Have them get their stuff, and get them out.” I told Greyson. “Parties over…it’s so fucking over.” I mumbled before going inside the house.

I was quick to get Nikki’s suitcase together and drag it out of my room. I carried it to the stairs, noticing Greyson escort the band out as Tommy and Vince tried to get him to reason. Nikki glanced up at me and when he did I threw his belongings over the railing, making it hit the floor with a loud thud. “Oh dude..” I heard Tommy speak quietly for once.

I grabbed his bass out of my room, and took it to the stairs, “Vanity.” Greyson said my name, rather as a warning as he shook his head. I exhaled as I walked down the stairs. I watched Nikki hunch over, picking up all his stuff.

I handed the bass to Mick as he took it, “One more thing.” I spoke out bitterly, unclasping the bracelet around my wrist. I fumbled with it before throwing it at Nikki’s boots.

I stormed upstairs, slamming my bedroom door so hard it split the wood. I quickly locked the door and sat against it for I don’t know how long.

*Nikki’s POV*

I fucked up. I royally fucked up. I fucked up the only good thing I’ve ever had, I mean minus the band. I fucked it up. I could feel everyone’s anger as we sat on the tour bus. We had left her house about forty minutes ago and we’re driving to Arizona for one last show, then home thank god.

I sat on the couch, clutching the bracelet, trying to control myself from locking myself away and shooting up needle after needle.

“I am sorry.” I spoke quietly.

“Shut the fuck up, Sixx. I don’t want to hear your fucking voice right now.” Mick growled, throwing down his guitar as he pulled himself out of the recliner, pouring himself a glass of vodka.

“She’ll forgive you-“ Tommy tried looking at the bright side as usual. “No she fucking won’t!!! Look at everything you have done to her! And to do this!? In front of her family and peers!?” Vince, for once was sounding like an adult.

“I fucked up and-“ “I said to shut up!!” Mick yelled at me, he always had a way to make me feel like a scared little boy.

“You even fucking told me you think you’re in love with her!! And yet you still do this shit to her!!!” Mick screamed at me, throwing the glass of vodka on the floor.

“You what?” Tommy perked up, “Dude. I fucking knew it.” He added on, slapping my arm.

“Nice one, Nikki. It’s like you don’t want to be happy.” Vince chuckled as he sipped on his beer.

“It doesn’t fucking matter anymore. She hates me and that’s it. It’s done. We’re done.” I closed my eyes, leaning my head back onto the couch.

“Well good, cause it’s what you fucking deserve.” Vince mumbled. I groaned as I stood up and went to my room.

“Yeah, go shoot up some more Sixx, cause that will make everything fucking great.” Tommy yelled out after me. I quietly shut the door and locked it.

I laid in the middle of the bed, clutching a pillow. Is this what heartbreak felt like? If I’m feeling like this I could only imagine how she’s feeling. Fuck, I can’t even picture it. I hope she didn’t destroy anything, just as everything was going fine between her and me, I fuck it up.

I just…it wasn’t me. I mean it was me, but it’s what the drugs do to me. I saw her with that guy and how she was laughing with him and how his hands were exploring her body, it just made me snap.

I wiped my face as I felt tears run down the corner of my eye. My gaze slowly moved to the needle that was perched up on the nightstand. I really was trying to fight the urge but Vanity’s words and tears were taking up every free space in my fucked up head.

I needed a relief, and if she wasn’t here to give it to me, then heroin it is.

Nice going, Sikki.

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PART 2 Black Lighting: The Book of Fortitude:Chapter one:Brandon’s Duplicity

Authors note: Here’s part 2 guys! I don’t know how long this “book” will be but everything within “ThebookofFortitude” will be tagged as such so you can find it.Ignore typos and weird wording I got kinda tired lol Enjoy!

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Brandon’s apartment 

“Aye, you got a hoodie?” Jennifer asks as she stands up ready to investigate. “Yeah” Brandon replies running over to his closet grabbing two hoodies. He throws one over to Jennifer. They both zip up and put on the hoods trying to conceal their identities. Brandon opens the door and its chaos.Residents in the apartment complex  are evacuating while Brandon and Jennifer are going the opposite way. Brandon nods his head directing Jennifer to a staircase towards the end of the hall. They keep their heads down as they rush to the floor above them.Once they reach the floor its completely abandoned. There’s debris shattered around the halls and broken light fixtures. Jennifer takes the lead and walks forward looking for the location of the sounds. Brandon follows behind her. She walks two doors down and apartment 301’s door was completely kicked in. 

Jennifer motions for Brandon to come forward. She sees soldiers sprawled out on the floor.” Yo, Jenn be careful” Brandon says as Jennifer gets closer to one of the bodies. A few of the soldiers have their helmets missing. Jennifer inspects their faces. Their eyes are completely black and there seems to be prominent black veins covering their faces.”Looks like Markovians”she says. “Maybe we should go” Brandon insists.”Hold on” Jennifer stalls as she squints to get a better look.”It looks like some kinda venom” she says turning to Brandon. “Jenn” Brandon says trying to get Jennifer to come back to his apartment with him. “You scared?” Jennifer asks chuckling. “No!” Brandon says unconvincingly. “It’s just not safe, how do you know they are really all dead?” Brandon questions. Jennifer lets out a sigh.”I can see electrical impulses, trust me I know the difference…...I can feel it”. Brandon looks saddened by that new insight. A vibration comes from Jennifer’s back pocket. She reaches back and grabs her phone. “ Ugh, it’s my dad” Jennifer huffs. “I gotta go but you think you’ll be okay without me?” she questions. “Come on, you’ve seen what I can do” he assures her. Jennifer rolls her eyes “uh huh”.

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Anissa’s Loft

Anissa and Grace are in the kitchen area. Anissa is holding Grace from the back as she cooks some breakfast.”Shonda, play Never Too Much by Luther Vandross”.Anissa tells to her smart house. The record starts to play throughout the loft. Grace chuckles as she places a lid on the food she cooked. Anissa starts to sing along to the track holding Grace’s hands. “oooooohhh my love....a thousand kisses from you is never tooo muchhh”. Anissa sings. They both start to dance and laugh. “Let me see what you got! Grace  says as she shimmies her shoulders.”You don’t know nothing about this!” Anissa breaks out the robot and turns around in a circle. “Woooowww! I hope don’t!” Grace laughs. Their gazes are fixed on one another while Grace bites her lip. Grace felt safe and happy....very happy.... so happy that at times she was scared to be so happy.She felt like as soon as she really got into the groove of being comfortable in the feeling, it might get taken away. But for now she was trying to just live in the moment. Anissa pulls her closer grasping Grace’s booty. “Don’t start nothin you can’t finish” Grace teases. “Oh you know I can finish it” Anissa says confidently while kissing Grace’s neck.

 The music turns down as there’s a knock on the door.” Gambi knocks on Anissa’s door again. “ Anissa, your uncle Gambi is at the door” Shonda announces. Anissa and Grace roll their eyes as their moment is interrupted. ”Shonda, pause music, open front door” she says. Gambi walks through the door with a briefcase and looks at them both. “Am I interrupting something?” Gambi asked. Anissa and Grace glance at each other and smile.They consecutively and sarcastically say “Nope”. Gambi gets the hint. “Sorry to interrupt but I have some important news but first Anissa how are you feeling?” Gambi asks. Anissa is looking much healthier than before her run in with painkiller. Anissa responds  “Honestly a hell of a lot better, between whatever it was you gave me and Grace helping me... I’m feeling a lot more like myself.” 

 Gambi nods and brings the briefcase with a computer inside over to the table. “I’m glad to hear that because it seems that we might have a problem that hits close to home that we may need you to help with.” Gambi explains. “What do you mean?” Anissa questions. “Remember how I said the venom was ten times more potent than a sample I had before? Well it took some time but I was able to match the samples.” Gambi taps the screen revealing information about the sample and a digital photo of Khalil. Anissa hesitated with her response.”Why is there a picture of Khalil?”.“Khalil like your sister’s boyfriend that passed?” Grace furrows her brows. “That’s what I mean.... I was able to match the molecular structures with the sample I already had from one of his darts. Anissa it’s match.” he explains.” “But we buried him!” Anissa shakes her head in disbelief.“ And I know that, so heres the other thing.... I went by the graveyard Anissa... and.... he’s not there.The plot is empty.” He explains sternly. “Someone dug him up? Why would he attack me?” Anissa’s mind thinks of a million questions. “Not just someone, my thoughts point to Odell, and the why I’m still trying to figure out.More then likely with what he did to you, Odell has weaponized him to do his bidding.” He explains further.” “Does Jenn know? My dad? Mom?” Anissa asks. “ Your mom and dad know. I haven’t had it in me to tell Jennifer, your mom said she would talk to her today.I just wanted to warn you and Grace. Although Odell is still recovering I’m sure he has contingency plans so be very careful.

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Brandon’s apartment

Brandon sits at his computer desk looking at a map. He presses the escape button and there’s photos of Khalil and Jennifer. As if he’s been doing some research on them, particularly Khalil. He gets a text message from Jennifer.

 TEXT BEGIN

Jennifer: Hey, you good?

Brandon: I told you, i’m good.I can handle myself lol

Jennifer: hmmm Just checking. It’s been like a week.Didn’t know if whatever that was came back looking for you or something.

Brandon: Nope, I’m good. You still coming by today?

Jennifer: I can’t. My mom wants me to do something but maybe later if it doesn’t take forever.

Brandon: Aight, bet

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Pierce Residence:

Lynn walks in as Jefferson is headed down the stairs. The tension is heavy between them. He looks over at her wanting to talk. “Lynn-”Jefferson is interrupted. “Jefferson, if this is not about our daughter, I don’t wanna talk about it. I already have to have a very difficult conversation with her today. So this... whatever this is between us is gonna have to wait.” She snaps. She walks further in the house. “Jennifer!”she yells out. Jefferson rolls his eyes and throws up his hands. His face is almost healed from the beating he took at the school. He didn’t want to argue with Lynn at-least not now. She gets closer to the staircase and calls out “Jennifer” once more. Jennifer yells “coming” from her room upstairs. As Lynn turns to head back towards the door a small valve falls from her pocket. She doesn’t notice but Jefferson does. Jefferson reaches down to pick up the valve as Lynn is looking towards the door awaiting Jennifer. Jennifer rushes down stairs. “Ready?” Lynn asks Jennifer. “Lynn?” Jefferson says confused about all the recent animosity coming from her lately.Lynn ignores him and rushes Jennifer out the door. Jefferson looks at Lynn and Jennifer get in the car wondering how things got back to this point. He closes the door and bangs his fist angrily. His eyes illuminate and the lights in the house flicker.He inspects the valve with a green substance inside in his hand. “Is this....?”

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Car

Jennifer and Lynn walk towards the car. Jennifer see’s a figure in the backseat. “uh, mom?” Jennifer says. “It’s okay, it’s Gambi.” Lynn explains. Since Gambi is still thought of as dead to the outside world he is using the cloaking device he created allowing him to take the form of a ASA agent. “Mom, what’s this about?” Jennifer questions. “I’ll explain, just get in the car”Lynn says checking over her shoulder. They both get in the car and Lynn starts to drive.

 “ You guys are acting super weird, what’s going on?” Jennifer asks searching for a motive. “Well sweetie-” Lynn stops, searching for the right words to say. “What? Did someone else die? That seems to be an every day thing now. Just tell me I can take it.” Jennifer affirms. “Jenn, It’s not that.....”Gambi takes a breath.. “.Lynn you have to tell her.” “Well, you know I’ve been working a lot at the lab and how your sister had a run in with a meta trying to bring back Tavon. Well we connected the venom sample to someone.”Lynn explains .“Okay?” Jennifer shrugs. “We connected it to..... Khalil......The DNA matches..it took some work but Odell has been hiding him at the lab for some time now.I hadn’t seen anything like it before.” Lynn struggles to get it out. “What! Mom, Khalil’s dead! Is this a joke?” Jennifer snaps. “Baby calm down,I...know...this is alarming news but were being 100 percent  honest with you...I haven’t quite figured out how they did this but what I do know is Khalil isn’t like he use to be.There’s a chip thats been implanted in him and I haven’t figured out how to remove it without damaging his brain or whatever’s left of it. “So, he’s alive? I can’t handle this right now” Jennifer yells. “Yes and....I’ve finally stabilized him enough for him not to try to kill us”.Lynn expresses. “What?!”Jennifer eyes light up.”Baby girl, I know...I know... this sounds crazy. It’s like some Lazarus project, gone wrong but try to calm down, at-least until we get to the lab.” “That’s where we’re going? you’re taking me to him?!” Jennifer questions. “Yes, put this on, you may be his last hope. ” Gambi replies with an empathetic tone. He hands Jennifer a cloaking device.

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The lab

“While agent Odell is in the hospital I have a little more free rein in the lab.We still have to keep this under wraps though.” Lynn states to Jenn and Gambi. “This hall is secret and the only area that I know the ASA agents don’t have access to without Odell.With him in the hospital I made sure the cameras in the room aren’t functioning.”

Gambi and Jennifer turn off their cloaking devices.

Lynn takes Jennifer to the side briefly. “Are you sure you can handle this?”.Jennifer nods taking a deep breath. “I just wanna see him.” Lynn gestures okay as she presses a button on her lab pad opening the door. 

Painkiller is laying down in a relaxed state wearing nothing but grey shorts.They walk in and he sits up. It was like he was in a trance. “Dr.Stewart” he says nonchalantly.

Jennifer couldn’t believe it. The initial sight of him sent a surge of feelings through her. It was like she was seeing a ghost. She felt like she was waiting for her heart to catch up to her eyes .Her heart was in a dark place and she wanted to make sure this wasn’t a dream. She didn’t know if she could handle it if it wasn’t.Jennifer and Khalil stare at each other briefly. His glare was cold and almost lifeless.Jennifer gets teary eyed as she approaches Khalil. “Be careful” Lynn warns her. “I gave him something to subdue him but the chip is still functioning,” she explained.Even the way he blinked was robotic. Jennifer touches his face. “I can’t believe this” Jennifer cries observing his face. Lynn and Gambi look at each other empathizing for Jennifer.Jennifer’s tears flood her face. “What did they do to you?” Jenn voice cracks. Khalil looks puzzled at the emotional reactions of Jennifer. Khalil stares at her trying to gather any memory of her. “Do I know you?” Painkiller asks with a slight attitude. Jennifer’s heartbreaks at his words.She knew he wasn’t himself but this was a lot to handle.The disappointment read strong on her face. She had hoped maybe their connection was strong enough to trigger something for him. “You really don’t remember me?” Jennifer inquires.

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Will Jennifer be able to help Khalil? Is he gone forever? What’s Brandon up to? find out in part 3.

Thanks for reading! Remember comments, reblogs and likes are appreciated!

[jesstinsource]

Justin has already been in Alex’s position, when she chose Alex over him after the spring fling. And yes, he didn’t yell or anything like that. But wouldn’t the phrase “Justin lets Jess make her own decisions” imply that they have broken up? Would he really be cool with her cheating on him with Diego or even being interested in him? That’s not “respecting” her, that’s just crazy

no no no this is completely different!!! i meant that alex isn’t BAD for jess. justin had absolutely NO right in any way whatsoever to go over and yell at her for being with alex, and he knows that! i don't think its right whatsoever to give justin any credit for how he acts in 2x13. he acts like a decent human being. lets not praise boys for doing the bare minimum. when he apologises for calling her beautiful, like thats probably my favourite bit bc its obvious he knew he overstepped. but what im talking about is like..... in the theory that jess and justin DO break up (which is like very likely despite what i said before) and she starts fucking around with d*ego. the phrase “he respects her ability to make her own decisions” strikes me as more of justin being suspicious of diego and his place within the monty situation while he’s broken up with jess. and instead of going up to jess and being like ‘i know we’re broken up but BE careful of him, don’t get close to him im suspicious of him’ justin kinda lets her do what she wants and internalises his own sadness over it. no cheating whatsoever. as opposed to ofc alex going up to jess many times throughout s3 and being like “he let you get raped what the fuck is wrong with you?!?!?!?!?!?!” and instead it’s like.... justin not being jealous and insecure. idk, brandon said justin’s pretty unproblematic this season. like he’s not gonna be causing drama, he’s gonna be fixing it. 

i realise now that i worded my response to the ask that prompted this REALLY badly!!!! oops. yes, my bad. i meant in the theory that jess and justin break up!!

[margoshansons]

What would you change of Infinite earths?

Holy shit! So much. Like I basically created a new plotline so strap in folks.

First of all: Oliver Queen doesn’t die in order to save Earth-38, you know who does? Kara Danvers. (like in the comics) and it’s not because of the shadow demons or anything, but the Anti-Monitor shows up, and physically kills her himself.

AND THEN! 

Lena is finally introduced into the greater arrowverse and meets everyone on the Waverider and sees that Kara is dead and just fucking loses it, realizing that none of this she had planned, that even though she said it, she never really wanted Kara dead and it sends her spiraling because she lost her best friend.

So as a result, the Monitor sends Clark, Lois, and Iris to look for another Kryptonian to replace Kara as a paragon where they bump into Brandon Routh!Superman, and that scene basically stays the same. 

Lena however, is working overtime with Alex, Barry, and Oliver to try and find a way to bring Kara back, while Kate goes and finds Conroy!Bruce (who ends up being Earth-1′s Bruce) and learns the truth of his disappearance (I don’t know what yet, but I’m gonna go with Bane put him in the back brace).

Then! Episode two ends with Lena realizing that there is a way to bring Kara back via the Lazarus pits and Oliver disagrees, saying that it isn’t worth it if Kara loses her soul in the process. Meanwhile, new of Earth-2′s death comes in the form of E-2 Laurel joining them, which deals a crushing blow to Flash. 

Lex taunts Lena and tells her that she has become exactly like him, except she was able to cause the death of a Super and Lena decides to take the book of Destiny and hide it away. and that’s the end of episode 2 (mostly Batwoman focused)

So at this point, Kara is dead, the team is grieving, Earth-38 and Earth-2 are gone and Pariah shows up to tell Barry about the cosmic treadmill, stating that he is the only one who can undo the Anti-Matter wave. We get the sad scene between him and Iris, and the sad scene between him and Cisco and Caitlin (and Cisco still gets his powers back and this is important). So we flash to the cosmic treadmill, where E-90 Barry Allen is on his last legs, so Barry takes him out and replaces him, running so fast that it looks like he disappears, but really he travels between universes!

Meanwhile, Lena goes to Alex and tells her about the Book of Destiny which Clark finds out through J’onn. Clark and J’onn and the Legends try to stop her but it’s too late, Lena has attempted to bring Kara back and we look over to see if it works and...it doesn’t. Lena wasn’t the right person. (or is she?)

Meanwhile, all the paragons are trying to save as many people as they can before the multiverse explodes, but they are caught off guard by Harbinger’s betrayal, and she has brought the Anti-Monitor with her. Pariah sends the Paragons away along with Cisco and the Book of Destiny.

The cliffhanger is the same, except we get a scene of Barry traveling back to minutes before Harbinger brought him to Earth-38 and this is where we learn that Pariah sent the other Paragons into a different universe as well (and Oliver’s a paragon goddamn it!)

During the Arrow episode it’s very Oliver focused because he will die at the end of this episode. like spoilers but not. Barry tells them what he remembers and the Paragons also tell him that they remember too. Oliver figures out that they are in a limbo, a sort of pocket dimension keeping them safe from the Anti-matter universe. Sara takes the Legends and Oliver back to the Dawn of Time and Oliver steals the Book of Destiny, using it to rewrite and collide the remaining universes into one, taking on the Anti-Monitor and dies to save the Multiverse.

Meanwhile, Cisco vibes the rest of the group to the Anti-Matter universe, where they use the cosmic tuning forks to vibrate at the same frequency as the pocket universe they were placed in so Oliver’s plan works.

Basically the Legends episode remains the same except Beebo is actually a machination of Psycho Pirate and Kate shows up, with Kara in tow. Lena knows the truth now and she ends up taking part in the final battle and just as the Anti-Monitor is about to Kill Kara again, Lena steps up and takes the hit instead. SACRIFICING HERSELF FOR HER BEST FRIEND AND REDEEMING HER!

The Paragons make one final wish using the book of Destiny and we see a small universe get created, Oliver and Felicity reuniting and growing old together with Mia. (she gets vibed back by E-2 Laurel for GA and the Canaries)

and then obviously the Justice League is formed and instead of the Monkey being heard at the end of the credits, we get a scene of Eobard Thawne’s lightning making an appearance.

Thats my fix it fic, (obviously I think having three Kryptonians is pretty OP, so I changed it to Tyler’s, who I don’t think is that strong, and Brandon’s who gets killed off at the end of the Flash ep anyway)

Also, if we were gonna get a Luthor heavy crossover, let it be Lena so she can redeem herself. 

Do my changes make sense? Probably not, but I like them.

If you wanted me to stick to canon, that’s a different story. 

[ecmlol]

“ it’s ok . Jude gets a little grumpy too at bed time” noah says

Jude pokes his head out of the freshly sprayed bathroom and give noah a look as to say really?.

“So where’s my birthday boy at Mr Hot mic.” Patty says in a flirty way.

Jude pokes his head out again.

“Well that sexy son of yours is getting his dental hygiene on at the moment.”noah says

“ oh ok then how is my handsome son in law.”

Jude is wondering why his mother is flirting with his husband as he spits and rinses his mouth.

“ ok ok I’m done you can stop flirting with my husband now don’t you have your own?” jude says

“ oh my god noah how do you put up with this jealousy issues.”

Noah sits up and pats the bed in between his legs so jude knows where to sit at.

“ I like it , it just apart of his love languages.”

Jude loves that noah gets him.

“ I will be worried when he stops being jealous.” Noah says

Jude smiles and takes a seat.

“There’s my beautiful baby boy”

Justice starts to sing happy birthday .

Noah and Patty starts to sings along. Jude starts to blush.

The singing ends

“Awwww are you blushing?” Patty says

“ no ..”

Noah kisses his shoulders.

“ it’s ok if you are Dane “ noah whispers against the side of Jude’s head.

“ it’s just I haven’t had anyone sing me happy birthday in a long time.” Jude says quietly as he wipes his eyes with the back of his hand.

Zero didn’t do birthdays so he never did anything for his.It was just a nother day.

Noah wraps his arms around jude and hold him closer to him.

Jude straightens ups and wipes his face again.

Jude sees that Justice has her Jude bear back.

“ how did you get your bear back?”jude ask

“I got it in the mail today”Justice says

“ it came with the nicest apology note from Brandon too”patty adds

“ wow isn’t that great Jude “noah says

“ yeah wow that’s awesome “ jude says

“ he explained everything jude . It was a accident baby.”

“Do you believe him”jude ask

“ yes I do,think hes being sincere baby”

“ ok”jude leans back and sighs.

“ baby we have to go it’s getting late and this one need to go to bed.”

“ thanks for calling”jude says

“ your welcome baby I love you so much”Patty say

“ bye jude bye noah “Justice say

Jude and Noah both say good bye and hang up

Noah isnt ready to let jude go just yet.

“ what are you thinking about?”

“ Brandon.”

“ want to talk about it.”

“ maybe I’m wrong about him maybe Brandon really is having problems with the whole split personality thing.”

“ you really thing your dad would lie?”

“ it’s Oscar “

“ the same guy that came to the wedding and helped you with eve and to keep the Devils. Prison changes people. Sometime for the better.”

“ true maybe he really has changed. He hangs out with your dads which is weird what could they even be talking about.” Jude say

“ maybe they are teaching him about being a good parent.”

“ your dads do seem awesome despite them not exactly liking me”

“ they never said they didn’t like you. You just aren’t what they expected.”

“ from the looks of them they are pretty opposite.”

“ true they are blue collar white collar pops is a artist and my dad a foodie ,one likes sport the other would rather watch cooking shows.”

“ ok well I have my whole life to change there view of me”

“ I wish you would stop thinking there is something wrong with how they see you. You are uptight Jude . The giant bottle of half used lube proves that and there is nothing wrong with being a walking talking wound tight, tight ass person .I love it . I just hope you don’t have a heart attack or anything because of it.”

Jude frowns

“ not funny noah “

Noah kisses Jude’s pouted lips.

“ your so adorable when you pout.” Noah kisses him again.

“ no I’m not”jude says

“ so it’s your birthday what would you like seeing you have everything. Your favorite car the team..”

“ I don’t know I’m pretty happy with everything in my life.” Jude say with a small smile on his face

“ ok I guess I can’t really buy you anything. So how about 15 kisses and 15 birthday spankings.”

“ oh 15 that’s it?”jude smile.

“30 total”

“ oh so you are being stingy with your affection huh?” Jude crosses his arms and acts like he’s offended.

Noah laughs

“ I’m being stingy huh?”

“ yeah you are “Jude says in a challenging tone.

Noah gets up and playful shoves Jude to his side of the bed . Jude lands face down and his butt facing Noah.

Smack! Jude smiles and jerks a little.

“ one”

Smack .smack .smack .smack

“5”

Noah smirks to him self and loses his shirt and boxers and lays in bed

“ hey that was only five”

“ it’s only 1218 am I have a whole day to tap that ass and kiss you.”noah says before kissing Jude’s cheek,jaw,nose, temple and forehead. Noah lays down and he can feel jude glaring at the back of his head.

Jude clears his throat.

“ yes my Dane can I help you?” Noah turns over to look at Jude.

“ thank you I the little spoon tonight remember ” Jude lays down and wiggles him self as close to noah as he can.

“ goodnight” jude say

.Two can play that game. Jude thought to himself.

Noah smiles to himself and wraps a arm around jude and buries his face in Jude’s pillow.

“ love you my Dane happy birthday ”

“ love you more .Jude smile and rolls his eyes.

The next morning Jude is woken up to the smell of bacon in the air .

Noah walks in sweaty wearing his gray cut off sweat pants and a red tank top.

“ raise and shine birthday boy.”

“ wow breakfast in bed?”

“Yes its all most done” noah walks over and kisses Jude’s neck.

“ six”

Noah kisses jude 4 more times on his neck and on his forehead.

“ 10”

Jude groans.

“ what ?”noah say innocently

“ you know what “ jude says as noah tries to retreat form the bed.

Jude grabs him by his hand and pulls him back.

“Wooh “ noah falls back into Jude’s lap

Noah smiles. Jude cups Noah’s face and kisses him on the lips.

“ 11,12,13”

“ no I kissed you so that doesn’t count “

“ fine”noah rolls Jude on top of him and kisses jude kiss more passionately this time and then gets up.

“13”

“ hope this breakfast come with a quickie.” Jude shout s as noah runs out the bedroom.

“If we have time”noah say

“ Jude hops up and heads to the bath so he can ambush noah in the kitchen

As Jude finishes up in the bathroom he can now smell cinnamon. Cinnamon is one of his favorite.

Jude peeps into the kitchen it’s a bit of a mess and see noah bent over and is pulling something that smells like heaven out.

Jude sneaks behind noah.

“ what are you doing?”noah looks up and see jude ‘s reflection in the oven door.

Jude hops up on the only clean part of the counter and lays down. He tries to act cool and tries to pose casually.

As noah dips the cinnamon goodness in butter and then in cinnamon and sugar Jude tries to be sexy and almost falls off the counter.

“ Dane please don’t kill yourselves trying to be sexy because you my Dane are sex on two legs to me “

Noah places the cinnamon goodness on a plate. Noah turns and almost drops the plate. Jude is laid out naked with bacon only covering his bits and pieces with a piece of bacon hanging out of his mouth.

“So .... quickie?”jude said mumbles around the bacon

Noah puts the plate down.

“Bring those with you “Jude say after he finishes the bacon in his mouth.

A hour and a half later.

At the arena.

Lionel is on the phone with Eve and German who are at the airport.

“ Has The cake arrived yet?”Eve asked

“ yes final it better be good.im glad I texted noah to stall Jude from coming to work too early “Lionel said. Lionel didn’t tell them she meet Brandon today and she thought she’d have to kick Noah’s ass for a second. She figured it out when she called Noah to chew him out.

“Hey Lionel we have to go I see them.” German says

They quickly say their good byes and hang up.

Lionel hangs up and turns around. The first thing she sees is jude half dress and then Noah who is in the same messy shape. They are both smiling and eating something.

“ Are my socks in your pockets?”Noah ask

“ maybe give me a second. this would have been easier if we had a bigger car.” Jude says . They have been talking about it but noah doesn’t want a new car because it’s paid for and Jude doesn’t want to give up his car because he like Porsche so much. noah thinks his car is big enough for a family .

“ we have been talking about it. do you have a pair of underwear in your pocket too I’m free balling it and it’s not a good look“ noah asked as he is putting his belt on. Noah doesn’t want to sound irritated about it.

Jude starts to pull out one sock and two ties but no underwear.

“No underwear but I have two ties”

“Ok that works. Don’t worry about the underwear I think I have a extra pair in my office you never know when you might need it.”noah says thinking about last night stomach issue.

Jude final puts his suit jacket on .

“ I think I have cinnamon and sugar on the back of my neck”

“ oh your lucky thats the only place you have it at my balls feel gritty “noah say

Jude couldnt help but to laugh and think about eat a part of his breakfast off of Noah.

They are half way to Lionel now.

“ do I look ok?”jude says

Noah fixes Jude’s hair a little.

“ perfect . What about me ?“noah ask

Jude dust off Noah’s face and shirt

“ ok your good now”

“ wait your shoes look funny.”noah tell jude

Jude looks down.

“ what’s wrong with them?”

“ you have my other shoe and I have yours .” Noah kicks off Jude’s shoe and Jude does the same.Then they swap shoes.

“ ok I have to go.” Noah say after a quick kiss and a quick slap on the ass.

“ 25”noah says as he walks away.

Lionel nods to Noah.

“ well happy birthday to my favorite ex step son.” Lionel say with a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

“ thanks I can’t wait to get this over with I hate being interviewed and I hate talking to large crowds ”

“ unless it’s noah ? Right?”lionel says

“ exactly it’s easy with him but I don’t think he’s working for the local news channel.

“No but he will be someone that interviews you today.

Lionel and Jude start to walk toward the court.

“ do I even want to know why you’re late?”

“ I’m sure you can guess.” Jude smiles

Minutes later Jude is at center court welcoming everyone to family day.

The first one of Noah’s videos starts to play on the Jumbotron . All of the rookies appear and Noah is interviewing them. The video is called who’s new in devilnation. Jude and Lionel are off to the side watching the video.The next video is all about the old player there is a birth announcement, an pregnancy announcement, and a engagement announce.

The screen goes black

“ and here’s your wedding video”lionel tells jude.

The Jumbotron goes dark and the first pictures of their of their wedding pop up. First the out side of the chapel with there wedding date comes on the screen.

Out of no where noah appears at Jude sides.

“ hey”

“ hi”

Noah Jude and Lionel are standing side by side watching the video.

“ I don’t think I have ever seen you smile so much or so freaked out“Lionel tells jude.

“ freak out?”noah asked jude

“ I thought you changed your mind.”

“ what !I was only like a few minutes late” noah leans in and says.

“You know how I get some times. Can we not talk about this while I’m trying to enjoy your master piece” jude says as he elbows noah.

“This was the best day of my life right next to getting the devils.” Jude says

Noah smiles.

“It was my favorite day too. And it was perfect.”noah says

“ ab-so-freakin-loty”jude finds Noah’s hand and holding it. The warmth of Noah’s hand helps jude calm his emotions.Jude takes a deep breath and wipes his eyes with the back of his hand.

The video is over and the screen goes black.

A pretapped message from noah comes up.

“ hey big guy. I just wanted to tell you how happy I am to be able to wake next to you everyday. So devil nation join me in wishing the king of la and my amazing husband a happy 30th birthday!

The Jumbotron lights up and the words for happy birthday come on .

The whole arena starts to sing.

“ close your eyes”noah tells jude

“ what?”

Noah covers Jude’s eye and they shuffle around.

Noah removes his hands from Jude’s eyes

About 60 feet away there is a devils backdrop and one of the largest cakes Jude has ever seen. The cake is made to look like the arena and the parking lot. They even have toy cars in the parking lot.There is enough cake for everyone in the arena.

Jude looks at noah and smiles.

Jude takes Noah’s hand closes his eyes and makes a wish. Jude opens his eyes and sees his father mother , and both his father in-laws walking around the back drop.

“ so are you surprised?” Lionel says

“ very” Jude’s says as he watche both his parent coming to toward him from two different sides.

“Hey baby”patty says

“ son”oscar says

Jude turns toward his dad and takes a step. Oscar reaches out and pats him on the shoulders. Oscar smiles and then awkwardly hugs him.

“ you have made me a very proud man.”oscar says

Jude didn’t know what to say. He doesn’t know how long he has waited to hear him say that.

“ thank you”so far today has been the best birthday that Jude can remember.

Jude gets tapped on the shoulder.

“ Jude “ patty hugs Jude tightly around the neck and kisses his cheek.

“ I can’t believe you’re both here.”

“ it wasn’t easy” Lionel say

Jude turns to Lionel

“ thank you”

“ well this was a group effort” noah says.

“ we all helped” German says pointing to Eve.

If this was a way Eve was trying to get into good graces with jude then it is working.

“ thank you”

Noah’s camera man is hovering around to catch any great moment of Jude’s birthday celebration.

“ can I get a few pictures of you and your family “ Jeremy ask jude

“ sure I definitely want a copy of the ones with my parents and me . I need proof that miracle are real.” Jude says with a smile. Jude is going to frame the picture and it’s going to be the first thing that goes on the baby’s wall .

In the middle of a picture with just jude and his dad something yanks at his pants leg.jude jerks a little and looks down between his legs.

Justice pokes her head out from under the cake table.

“ surprise!”

“ hey “ Jude bends down and pulls her from under the table.

Justice laughs at jude lifts her in the air and then puts her down.

“ I totally forgot she was under there “ patty say with embarrassment written all over her face.

“ Stellar parenting Patricia” Oscar says

“ oh no “ noah say under her breath.

“ after pictures Oscar go to you’re corner.” Lionel says

German and eve stood proudly next to Lionel .

“ your feisty .”patty says

“ yes she is “ German say.

Jude tells Justice to go hang with their mom while he finishes taking pictures with Oscar.

A few minutes later Jude is done with taking pictures for the arena.

Jude walks over to the small crowd of friends and family.Jude’s father in laws are first to greets him.

“ happy birthday Jude “Chester says as he gives Jude a bear hug.

“ happy birthday son” marshal says with a hug that reminds him of Noah.

“ thank you guys for coming”jude say. At the moment jude is a little overwhelming.

“ your welcome when Noah told us about it we couldn’t miss it.”Marshal says

“ The three of us flow in together. Thank you for the invitation Noah” Oscar

“ not a problem.” Noah say

“ why don’t you all go and enjoy family day” jude suggest

German and eve head off telling lionel that they will see her later.

“ Jude I was hoping to spend some times with you and give you your birthday gift.”

“ you got me a gift?”Jude says in complete shock.

“ i have a few interviews in about .” Jude checks his watch.

“In 10 minutes we can talk after?”

“ of course jude . Go. Meet me outside on the loading dock afterward Jude”

Patty rolls her eyes

“ loading dock?”jude says

Oscar walks away before answering Jude’s question .

Jude looks at noah and mouths loading dock?Noah smiles and shrugs.

“ trying to make up for lost time with expensive gifts isnt going to change things.Bastard” Patty says out loud to herself.

At the moment Jude feels like he’s on the spot and it make him feel like he is off his game. Jude all ready has a lot on his plate with the new season , his brother lurking around and the baby on the way . Having his parents feuding isn’t helping anything.

“ and get sober starting a whole new life isn’t going too erase past either.” Jude says and walks away leaving Patty shocked and unsure what to do or say

“ Mom I want some cake please.”justice say pointing to the cake that is being cut not to far from where they are standing. Patty blinks and focus on her youngest.

“Of course sweetie we can get you a piece.

Noah follows after Jude

“ hey you ok?”

“ was all of this your idea?”jude asked

[prettymuchdolansbitch]

Award Winning | N.M.

A/N: This goes to the Anon that asked for something soft 🥺 It was solely based off this picture, enjoy 💖

Today was a big day for your boyfriend, Nick's, band. They were nominated for an award on their new EP that just came out not too long ago.

Unfortunately, Nick & the rest of the guys were advised not to bring their girlfriends to the award show so that they can be more appealing to fans. You were upset you couldn't be there to celebrate when they won, but you understood.

Nick was out all morning getting cleaned up and what not. You sat at home cleaning up some areas of the house that needed cleaning. Nick got home and didn't start to get ready til an hour before they had to leave for the red carpet.

He was running all over the house and throwing clothes everywhere. The clothes that you had just put away. "Nick, honey. Your outfit was already planned out. It's all in the closet already." You said leaning on the doorway of your shared bedroom.

His head turned so fast to you and he just smiled. "Oops. Sorry babe. I'll put everything back. Thank you thank you thank you" He ran out of the room across the hall to your walk in closet that you guys shared. Nick didn't forget to place a small kiss on your head though as he ran out of the room.

You picked the clothes up from the floor and folded them quickly and put them back in the drawers in front of you. The amount of clothes this kid has is insane. You thought to yourself.

Nick came back into the room dressed with messy hair. He put his shoes on and then ran to the bathroom to fix his hair.

You sat on the couch and waited for him to be done. Nick ran into the living room out of breath. "You ready?" You asked. "Uh yeah I should be. I think I have everything. Hard to know when your girlfriend isn't coming to make sure I have everything."

You laughed at what he said. "You just need me there to hold your shit." You grabbed your keys and walked towards the door. "No, I just need you to be there with me." He pouted and wrapped his arms around you.

"Mm, I'll be right on that couch watching everything. I'll text you if I see anything wrong" You placed a gentle kiss on his lips, but that wasn't enough for him. He pulled you back and started to kiss you hard.

"Okay, you're gonna be late, and I'm sure the boys are just waiting on your ass so they can leave" "Ugh fine." He mumbled walking out the front door.

-

You were making yourself some dinner in the kitchen while waiting to hear the boys on the TV. As soon as you heard "prettymuch" on the TV, you turned off the stove and brought your mac n cheese to the living room.

You watched the boys walk the red carpet and pose. People were already raving about them. E! had stopped the boys for an interview and you were excited for them.

"Last question, is everyone here single? New fans are dying to know" She turned the mic to them. "Actually just me and this guy are." Brandon said pointing to Zion. They both smiled. "Yeah our girlfriends are at home watching this right now." Nick said smiling at the camera. "Well, now you guys know! Congrats on the nomination and good luck!" They all said thank you and the channel cut to commercial.

An hour & a half later, it was time for the award that the boys are nominated for. You sat on your couch sweating so much. You were nervous but you knew they had this in the bag.

"And the winner is... PRETTYMUCH!" You jumped off the couch screaming to no one. "THATS MY BABYY" you screamed and recorded it on your phone.

You saw the boys all had smiles on their faces and we're hugging each other. They had some people from their team with them and hugged them as well. You watched as they all walked to the stage with big smiles. You couldn't help but tear up a little. This is their first big award ever and you were so incredibly proud of them.

Just knowing how many hours in all you didn't see Nick per day because of this EP made you even more proud. It was all worth it. And they're going on tour in a month? They really made it.

Nick grabbed the award from the presenters and held it up. Brandon was the first to speak. "We just wanna thank everyone who had a part in this EP. The fans, our team, family, everyone. It really means the world. Thank you!" He stepped back to let one of the other boys speak.

Nick came up and began to speak. "Man, this is really special to us. This is our first award ever, and this is really only because of you guys. We love you. And to my love who's at home probably crying, thank you for sticking with me through the whole process. And I think we can all say that to our ladies. Y'all special. Love you baby. Thank you guys, again" He stepped back and it didn't look like anyone else had to say anything so the camera switched to the crowd.

Nick wasn't wrong. You were bawling and didn't even notice. Everyone began tweeting you about it and your heart felt so full. You couldn't wait for him to get home.

You got a text from Izzy and she said that they were all going to the Prettymuch House to celebrate. You quickly changed and drove over. You stopped to buy a champagne bottle for Nick and the boys.

You knew Nick was going to stop at the house anyways because of the rest of the boys. So you just thought you could leave with him from there.

They got to the house and everything was crazy. Confetti and champagne was thrown everywhere. They really won the award and you were beyond ecstatic for them. Nick walked into the house and went straight to you. You hugged him and started crying again.

"I love you so so much" You said into his ear. He pulled back and looked at you. "I love you way more" He kissed your head and saw all the excitement happening behind you.

You grabbed the bottle from next to you and handed it to him. "Try not to waste half of it this time" You said reminiscing about his 21st birthday on tour when he wasted half a bottle of champagne from letting it get everywhere.

"I'll try." He shook the bottle and ripped the top off letting it explode everywhere. Nick held the bottle up to his mouth and drank some. Parker took pictures of you two while he drank.

3 hours later, you were exhausted and Nick was drunk. You didn't care though. You were happy he was bathing in blissful delight. You knew it was time to go home when you found Nick knocked out in Edwin's bed.

"C'mon baby, let's go home." He turned over to go back to sleep. "Niiicckk" You said poking his butt.

"Okay okay. Help me up." He held his hand out to you. You attempted to pull him up but instead he pulled you on top of him.

"You loser" You said as his arms naturally fell on you. "Mm, I'm your loser" He said closing his eyes again. "Indeed you are." You said smiling at him.

"Do you ever think about having kids? I mean you're fucking gorgeous, and I'm not too shabby. Our kids would be the most beautiful creatures on this planet" He rambled to you. This was the first time in the 3 years you've been dating that he talked about kids.

You were shocked because he never brought up a family before. You assumed it was the alcohol talking though. "You're soo drunk. Let's get you home" You tried to get up off of him.

"No, I mean yeah I'm drunk but it's not the alcohol talking. I really do want kids with you." You looked at him and his eyes were still closed. "We can talk tomorrow when you're sober, okay?" You said staring at his gorgeous face.

"Okay, let's go home" You rolled off of him and tried your best to help him up. You guys walked to the living room and saw only a few people left. You said bye to Edwin and Izzy as they were the only ones you really cared to say bye to. You didn't know where the rest of the boys were so.

You got home and helped Nick get out of his clothes. He had enough energy to shower and get into bed. You guys laid in bed and he immediately got on top of you. Nick laid his head on your chest and almost immediately fell asleep. "I love you mamas. Goodnight." He said placing a kiss on your boob. "Love you too sugar" You ran your hand through his hair as you felt his body get heavy with slumber.

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I want to fucking scream. I want to fucking cry. I want to fucking disappear. Why does all this keep happening? I feel i will never be good enough for you. I do things not thinking or knowing that it could possibly mess things up for us. I have never gone through this before, i never been with someone who gets pissed off with me because i deleted pictures of myself because i find them ugly or i just dont like it. It sucks because of the fact i didnt tell you all the trust is gone. It sucks that i downloaded messenger to check something cause i assumed you was using it i cant be trusted because i didnt tell you. youre right i dont think of these things because to be honest ive never had to do any of this before so its hard for me to keep up everything just to make you happy and for you to be at ease but some how i always manage to fuck it up without meaning too. And even if i explain myself and tell you the truth and the why behind it.. its too late because you already feel the way you feel and its not fair to me because im literally doing nothing wrong. And you still feel im talking to someone but how? You have all my information you can clearly see what i do and who i talk too. So because i dont remember old information i cant be trusted? You dont remember old and newer information but i trust your word behind it but because of what i did when it came to jeff its different right? Which isnt fair. It sucks that you always search for things in my past, yeah i did it in the beginning which i shouldnt have. But why are you doing it now? Its not right, but of course you are going to use that against me and make me feel like shit always. Any little thing i do you always make me feel like shit for it. It sucks, it sucks that im walking on fucking eggshells with you, because it seems like anything i do is wrong in your eyes when all i been trying to do is fix myself and us. Its gotten to the point where i question if you even love me anymore? Are you looking for reasons to just not love me anymore or to not care anymore? Are you looking for reasons to try and leave or just not give a shit about our relationship because it will be easier for you? ... I took a break from typing.. but here’s a random question you ever took a shower and then just put your hands on your ears and just let out a silent scream. i swear i was there just silently screaming for a good 2mins under the water with tears running down my face. i had the strongest fucking urge to cut myself like i just needed too.. instead i was just scratching at my chest i promised him i would never harm myself again but fuck do i want too. I hate this i truly hate this, i hate how im feeling its too much i feel myself exploding from it all. I ended up giving you proof because you feel that all i do is keep lying to you when im not i tell you the truth about it all but dont give EXACT detail. Why do i have to apply that i had to log into mine to click on your profile if i wasnt even viewing my own.. think of it as a detour you just pass through  a different way but you dont actually stop anywhere .. i didnt stop to view who messaged me i could care fucking less who messaged me but you dont understand that.. and oh look you found another reason to not want to trust me “how ironic” as you would say. Then assume i deleted shit when i didnt and if i did on fb it would tell you if i did or not. The messages you were thinking of was on instagram but because you dont want to believe it because you are uncertain im still a liar? And then you go and assume i would unblock him what fucking for? i have everything i need and want right in from of me which is you!! Why is it that you cant make any mistakes why is it only me? Like obviously you made a mistake but whatever i will take the blame for that one too because fuck it, im already at fault for everything else.Then we are going to bring up the cheating message there is so many different forms of cheating doesnt mean its right because its not cheating in any form is cheating. Me seeing someone behind your back is a form of cheating even if i didnt physically do anything with that person, but because i knew she liked me it was wrong of me to hang out with her. The only person i physically did that too was Guillo. But after him everyone else cheated on me and i felt i was in the wrong for hanging out with her knowing i shouldnt even though they already cheated on me.. i will always blame myself for everything because obviously i did something wrong for them to cheat on me right? It all stopped when i met Ryan though. He changed me in many ways and to be a better person i then knew what i wanted in a relationship and i knew i wanted to be married one day and to settle down so that was my goal in life. So when i say i use bad choice of words sometimes i really fucking do at times. Shit when i was with ryan i felt bad for even doing stuff with my baby daddy at times even if it was for chance. Thats how much i changed.. and when we cross paths again is when you met the changed me. And i fell so fucking hard for you and i already fucked up once. I dont know why you feel that i would EVER want to fucking do it again. HELL NO, i want to be your wife i would never cheat on you!! Im sorry it feels like endless lies but i did fix that but when im under pressure i fuck up soo much that i tend to ruin everything and i hate that about myself. I never been more sure of someone like you before. i never tried so hard in a relationship before either.. like when jessica said i came along way believe that because i really fucking did. i do things for you i would never do.. i didnt even do with ryan like give all my info to you and have you forever be able to read my texts. i would never do that for anybody i would tell them to fuck right off to trust me. i know its not easy trusting me right now because i keep fucking up my words and doing everything poorly because we simply think differently. But doesnt mean i wont keep pushing and trying. I just dont want you to give up on me because i know in person it was soo much easier for us it was and you KNOW THAT. I just hope you can make it up that long. and i hope you still want to be my Husband Brandon because i want to be the best wife you ever had.. and i want to be your wife. and i will continue to change and improve us and myself. for better or for worse. I hope you dont take this message as another fight because i dont have anymore fight left in me. I still cant stop crying.. you dont have to respond to this message at all. Just please ... Will you stay? Will you continue to fight? Most importantly ... Will you marry me? </3 

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

Declan: but Cali Jesse saved every one from the gas,chamber

Me: no baby me and my mom and dad and the firemen and FBI and EMT did. He was just supposed to empty of the dead bodies. The gas was on over two hours. They were all dead baby. He just supposed to clear the dead bodies before Brandon got home so Brandon didn't have to deal with it.

Declan: oh gosh

Me: clean up crew huh Jesse... Then swoon me off Brandon. Pick up my emotional pieces. Help me piece myself together. Poor fragile me. Betray Brandon in front of his face Like you do every one. Hmm. Simple. Not at all complicated

Jack: are you fucking kidding me? That's disgusting. You mutilated his dick with car battery acid for raping you in the 90s

Alex Laughlin: she don't care she don't need sex she already said just a good friend that's all and May be a cuddle or too Or a shoulder to cry on every now and then.

Me: yeah well you don't have a dick either, Alex so.

Alex: am i still in the running?

Me: are you still human trafficking? That's right. Keep coughing bitch, cause i know you are

Alex: but not on the SMS. And No one is allowed to look in my phone. That is illegal. Just like i can't look in yours. I already tried. So did President Trump.

Me: so you both can do illegal shit But no one else can

Alex: that is the rule.

Me: you coughing up blood yet?

Alex: no. Do you on this COVID?

Me: no. Your blood becomes too thick and heavy to be expelled through your throat. You won't choke and drown on it nor cough it up. Its a dry tuberculosis. We don't want people in the hospital to be killed by a doctor serial killer. So no. You won't. But I have had tuberculosis.

Alex: ask Agent Orange. He probably gave it to you. Sabrina can i take cough syrup? This cough sucks it is too much. I know its a virus and it can keep it in

Me: it's a dry cough. You're not coughing up anything lining your lungs like cancer then you should take cough syrup

Alex: do you take cough syrup for your cancer although your cough is wet? If so why?

Me: yes because i don't like coughing. I usually cough most at night or in stores lately... And so it keeps all the congestion down so when I wake up when i cough because i will then i cough up pieces of the cancer covering my lungs.

Alex: so it helps. What if my lungs are covered with dry blood will i cough it up then?

Me: nah... You need moisture in your lungs. If your lungs are covered with dry blood sure pieces can get loose but they are in the lining... And unlike cancer the COVID is meant to stay inside.

Alex: so it won't come out?

Me: tuberculosis. We didn't want it like that. So it should not. You could make it if you tried. But it would be alot of work. Like nebulizer treatments or inhalers used 24/7 ... Cough syrup will just increase your comfort, take it, its fine. It won't hurt you.

Alex: you promise? Pinky swear

Me: i pinky swear. It goes in your tummy and stops it with the meds in your blood stream. If you're drying out you're too dry to produce mucus.

Alex: ok I guess ill take Nyquil. The liquid with alcohol

Me: that is what i take. But it makes me tummy ache.

Alex: yeah and it's big, too

Me: yup. So keeping the virus in is more for the poops you're supposed to poop the virus out. Cough is just coughing out air. The virus of COVID is in your blood. So there's no reason to worry about taking medicine. Stay hydrated. Water and so on, it will keep you alive longer. So think about your blood evaporating.

Alex: dude that's sick! Thats not what is happening is it?

Me: it is. Platelets. The ultra rich blood is left over. That's all you care about right? Being rich?

Alex: so we are turning into mummies, is that it?

Me: it's a very beautiful disease, yes.

Alex: oh my gosh. I never thought it could be So fascinating. Could I ask you some more questions about this disease later? I don't feel so good, I want to lay down.

Me: yeah you have a right to know how you're dying.

My dad: everyone does. And mummies is a great euphemism for whatis going on with you. I could tell you all about it since I already know. Sabrina has to remember it and rediagnose it but you see she does it perfectly. And she likes talking to you. She's trained you very well in human concept. That's it lay on your tummy. Does it hurt?

Me: of course you'll have to expel all gases or your mummy will explode

Alex: like King Tut

Me: yup

Jack: well fuck. So mummies huh. Living mummies.

Me: most are already brain dead zombies... Turned mummies...

My dad: then ask we have left is Frankenstein. But we'll leave that up to Sabrina.

Alex: are we coming back to life?

My dad: some

Jack: we are not putting bolts in people's necks!

Me: well... The bolts were to create energy into the nerves and blood. Right into the spine. I bet he couldn't feel shit.

Matt Hagan: that would be worse than Dr P

Me: yeah but totally I'm into that...

Jack: fine

Me: I'm sleepy

Alex: how can you sleep at a time like this?!

Jack: Mayberry cams her down!!

Alex: you mean the Andy Griffith Show?! They are ass holes

Me: nah. They make mistakes but they help each other fix them

Alex: ahh they're not perfect

Me: Barnie tho he's an ass sometimes.. Worse than Andy. Andy he's a sweetheart. Barnie he's gotthat excitement so like when you're depressed, he's that guy that makes ya feel like living ain't so bad. He's always into something. When he gets on your nerves you make Andy deal with him. Barnie can be Whiney but Andy can just whine right back. So sometimes Andy can be real stone walled and seem selfish like he don't ever invite Barney to dinner but dam why does he always gotta take care of him?! He's a grown ass man. Andy looks like my grandpa.

Jack: I see. You analyze their relationships and Andy is always the hero

Me: yeah. But you gotta love Barney .... He's just who he is.

Jack: you critically analyze. You break it down So you see all their flaws but you see how together their flaws are not flaws. They're just able to balance each other. I always see how Andy couldn't handle work without Barney being loyal and needy. You call it annoying and bugging and allot of work for Andy.

Me: mhhmm

Jack: and I see it as Andy's need to take care of everyone and everything. Sometimes I think you're just mad you can't do Andy's job

Me: fuck that

Jack: but I see you don't put yourself into the TV or into the scene as people would say. You sit behind the Director or Producer chair to make sure that everything is running good in the office and town. You're like the Mayor or Governor of Little Mayberry. That's why I say you're watching Mayberry, not the Andy Griffith Show.

Me: well Andy looks like my grandpa and my grandma that was married to him used to live on Griffin Avenue. So it's fighting I'm Her Highness, The Gov'na

Jack laughs: that's why I love you baby!

Me: look at Barnie being squashed between those two big guys fighting!! He's so ridiculous! But then he gets all ruley -- then he always acts like everything was smooth as silk not like a burlap sack

Jack: sometimes Andy catches him, too

Me: "well Barn, why didn't you just tell me to begin with"

Us: "well IDK I was just..."